Trust In The Lord

As a teen having to grow up more than ever before and having to bring up a family is a tough thing, but with God nothing is impossible

At times i feel so down
i guess you could say im blue
at times like these
i just dont know what to do
I have two especially important people
Paul and my kaylee boo
but most times it is only her i feel attatched to
he seems so distant,
but it hurts him when i say it
i feel like he doesnt need me
only my baby does

paul my dear,
i love you with all my heart
always and forever
never to be apart
i want you as long as i live
no one else will do
all i want
is you

kaylee my baby...
when im having a bad day
all i have to do is look in your eyes
which seem to tell me everythings ok
i love you so much,
and always will
altho sometimes ill be the one
that you want to kill
you are the fruit of my labor
my precious baby girl
to raise and love forever
no matter how i feel

as for me, idk y
im even alive
what is it that the lord sees
why is it that he allows me to thrive?
obviously there is a reason
tho i dont understand
but things only last a season
so i better get with his plan
before i find myself on another path
once again..standing in the sand
sinking to a place i dont know
entering thing i dont understand
instead of going that way agian
i am going to yield,
allow myself to be used
a tool of the lord,
a victor, not confused
i want this so intensly
need it so desperately
but find myself fighting him
insead i follow my emotions
follow them at every whim
tho the thing i long
is to be one with him
to be so lost that no one sees me
an ugly, filthy me, so in need
but to see a glorious king
glorious indeed

Lord, i know you see
that im in need
i want to be your seed
change me i plead
Mold me into your image
instead of being so damaged
i want to be holy
i want for others to see
to see you in me
and you only
please my God
change me forever
let me feel your love once again
allow me to be used by you once more
i want your fire to rain
i will open my hearts door
i need u to guide my family
for you are what we need
be our king...

Joshua 25:15
And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, then chose you this day whom you will serve, whether the gods which your fathers served who are on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the amorites in whose land you dwell:but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord

Lord i need to win these battles
battles that fill my mind
i need the land that is taken from me
land thats yours for all time
I love you lord
and in you will trust