Where Did My Heart Go?

Emotions felt and time lost to love, an ending to the beginning, of the death of a boy, and the birth of a man.

Oh, where did my heart go?

Oh, I gave it to you, you know!

But now it's gone, a thousand deaths, a hundred shards,

A future with you no longer in the cards.

Distance, oh ignorance, a bliss unknown to man,

Where alienation befits even he who is your greatest fan.

Corpseborn, parents buried twice, true emptiness inside,

Where though for you I am transparent, your life still you try to hide.

Sister found, sister lost, a weeks time for the reaper to take,

and from that day, from real every smile has gone to fake.

It dawns on your face, in your heart, soul, and mind,

That you no longer deserve me, so you choose to leave me behind.

It mattered little to me, what you believe you were due,

My heart fell too fast, but in my heart such love was true.

Eight times the fool am I, 

for eight times now you've made me wish to die.

But I'm too strong, for you to harm in such a way,

Your self loathing so apparent, each and every day.

You do not love yourself, and so neither can I love you,

And now I know exactly what I wish to do.

It was love that I was falling in,

And now it is hatred I am falling for, oh dearest Dustin.

The thought of you with anyone else, drives me far past the point of anger,

But now tis time for me to move on, escape the pain, and forget you, oh dearest Tiger.

Author's Note

It's not meant to be technically good, this one in the truest sense of its kind is only meant to be a release of emotion.