U Know Best

A Poem by Devote

I tell you what, if you promise to accept me for whom I am then I promise to be who I am. I don't consider myself to be a nonconformist by any means. If anything I often find myself trying to conform but somewhere along the way I end up even more myself than when I began. That's sad and confusing, but at the same time comforting and reassuring. It lets me know that I am genuine. "A hundred" as some may say. So what if I don't play the game the way you do. I feel like there is room for me and my ego in this world. This is just a warm up for things to come. A mental exercise if you will. A way to stretch my mind muscle and release a little tension that has started to clog and thereby block the big picture of what I really want to say. While this is honesty in its purest form, it's by no means at the level I desire. I try to never speak from the heart. Two people said it best I think. First King Solomon when he said "The heart is treacherous, who can trust it." Second Jack Johnson when he said" Sometimes I feel like the heart is no place to be singing from at all." That is not to say that what I say is without emotion and feeling. I feel very deeply and strongly. I try to find a balance so that the message within is not cloudy and confusing but also not to direct and without poetic flare. Thanks Sara.