Little Annie and Big Sissy

Little Annie and Big Sissy

You want to leave

Death is the only exit

Only 14, so much to achieve

But you don't know how. Pill, rope, BULLET?

You can't leave your family. Your sister

She looks up at you, because she loves you

You won't end it all now, with the pull of a trigger

This is not what you intended to want, to have, to do

You go to school, knowing today is the last day

You keep your mouth shut and your tears choked up

You don't have many friends there, but still don't know what to say:

Goodbye? I love you? Im leaving? No more gossip?

Your last day, your pushed to the end of the line

You crash to your room and go under your bed to find a shoebox wrapped in sheets

Your mom walks in to find a gun in your hand. Notices your plead, to end a lifetime

Dropping the gun, momma asks "Suicidal repeats?"

Its happened before, no not the first time you've put your life on the line

Not the first bullet but definiatly the last

The next day at school. You tell them your fine

With a smile on your face, looking like your having a blast

The next day at home

All alone

Back to the thoughts that you've got nothing to loose

To your closet you reach, in search of the last noose

Grab a chair and your video camera

Im at the end

I love you Mom and all my friends

Little Sister Annie, 

Yes you too!

I know its wrong

But this is life, I don't belong

My exit is here

With Sincere

Big Sissy

You tie the rope to the fan

On the chair beneath is where you temporarily stand

Noose around neck, hand on hand

Legs go up, jumping without a land

The chair kicks down

And without a sound

Your body drowns

And life is beneath your ground

Sister Annie is back, and Mommy too

7 years old and runs to your room for one big hug

She ran in. No life to view

The end of your legs she tugs and tugs

Wake up

Wake up

Sissy, wake up

WAKE UP

She screams for mommy

"Yes Sweet-Pea?"

She walks in

No life to see, but her little baby Annie

Her daughter is dead

Your dead

Momma cries 

And cried

Hugs you

Loves you

Feels the pain

Knows the pain

Momma went through it, baby

But she was alive for you

Couldn't end it at 14

She had to much to achieve

Your gone

You dead. Never came back

Sister Annie prayed for you

Asked Santa for you

But your gone

Your dead. Never got her Christmas dream

Your gone

Your dead

Momma cries 

She cries

Your gone

Your dead

Those people who you thought were just strangers,

Felt you too

Knew what you were going through

Went through the same

They were there. Someone always is

Look deep inside to find your happiness

Because you ARE happy, behind it all

You are missed

Sister Annie is at school

she's 14

Trying to fit in. Just trying to be cool

Doesn't want to be a loser, or feel unseen

Her best friends are gone

Her happiness is faded

Her sisters lifetime is foregone

Her feelings were disobeyed

She walks home alone

Texts her sister to wait for her when she gets home

No answer from her sisters phone

Feeling all alone, Little Annie

Gets home form school

Sissy is still dead

Is this all some type of ridicule?

Little Annie, lays on her bed

At home

All alone

Back to the thoughts that she's got nothing to loose

To her closet she reaches, in search of the first noose

Oh, Little Annie. Grabs a chair and her video camera

She tells you she loves you

And Mommy you too

Im at the end

I have no friends

I know this isn't right to leave my mom

Just like my sissy did

i saw how much it hurt you, Momma

But ill be happier

Annie ties the rope to the fan

On the chair beneath is where she temporarily stands

Noose around Little Annie's neck, hand on hand

Legs go up, jumping without a land

The chair kicks down 

And without a sound

Little Annie's body drowns

And life is beneath the ground

Mommy is back

Runs upstairs to give her last baby a hello-hug

She ran in. No life to view

The end of Little Annie's legs, she tugs and tugs

Momma cries

Her life is a bunch of lies

Her beautiful children are gone

Everything she wanted to achieve, was leaving her seas

Mommy is stronger now

She stayed strong

She had lifetime to achieve

Her daughter watch from above

They rest in peace together up there

While Mommy stays around here

Praying each night

Asking Santa for

Little Annie and Big Sissy

Author's Note

This poem was suppose to show a story line and explain how depression really does affect teens. Explains through poetry how some kids can go to school, looking like they are having a blast and smiling. But go home to cry- to die. Yes, I write this in times I myself, as a 14 year old felt sad and alone. I purposely took away the rhyme scheme throughout the poem to clarify the point that suicide is shown twice in the poem but is never the right answer as it makes many upset and depressed when your gone. (Momma, Annie, friends)
Once you commit suicide "Your gone, you dead" You "Never come back" Hope you enjoyed this poem/story because it took my a while to write and if it related to some of you guys out there. Your all worth it.
And remember!
-Pain is temporary but death is permanent<3
Im always here to talk.