I wait...

Short story I wrote when I was in similar mood.

Honks…
Chatting…
Footsteps…
Engines running…

I walk here… Between the crowd… Thinking about you… Walking in darkness…
I look up at my destination… On the other side of the fence…
A place to wash away my sins… my regrets…
A place to pray for an impossible future… I pray for us to be together…
A place I came to… to search for hope… hope that you will be happy…

I enter the gates and look at the building… I feel drunk… unable to think… unable to feel…
I walk to the doors of the House of Heaven… Feel the weight of my feet get heavier… Feel myself getting deaf…
I open the door… I enter the silence… I see you standing there…
Air got heavier…. Hard to breath… drowning…
You are beautiful… you look at me… see me standing…
You are waiting for me… to drive away this air… to make my move
I want to tell you something… Something I wanted to say again… for a long time…

I walk towards you… step…….
Step……
Step………
Step…………  My heart beats faster…
Step…………… you seem uncomfortable…
Step……………… I am uncomfortable too…
Step………………… I am doing things without plans…
Step…………………… I am feel like I am walking through walls…
Step………………………
Step………………………… I stop in front of you… Silence befalls…
I look at your face… Sounds… our hearts… our breath… in sync with each other…
I lift my hand towards your cheek… I hold you… stroke your cheekbone with my tumb… I look into your eyes…
I see the world she sees… I know how she feels…
"I love you" I say in silent words… I move closer with my face… ground is shaking around me… its getting louder… my heart beats faster… my feet are lighter… my head is filling up… our lips touch…
"No" you say to wake me up… from my hopes and fantasies… I move back… look at your face…
I see tears… I hurt you again… You are hurting yourself again… my heart silences… silence befalls… I feel weak… destroyed… my energy sucked…
I see your face… a face that loves me… I see your heart… a heart that I love…
I look away into emptiness… you look at Earth… you walk away…
Step……………………… My voice screams in my head… Why do I still love you!?...
Step…………………… Why can't I forget you!?...
Step…………………  Why can't I be with you!?...
Step……………… Why are you running away!?...
Step………… Why are you lost!?
Step…… I love you!…
Step… You love me too!…
The doors close… I end where I began… I feel drunk… I can't think… I can't feel…
Silence enters my head again… I see darkness…
Entering my state…
Of an Eternal wait…
For you…

Author's Note

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Reviews

[ju]

i love the shape of this. very creative with the steps. feels like poetry. beautiful last couple of lines.