Impossible Love

I wrote this for someone, it didn't happen but I was a bit jealous. Its not perfect, but it's honest.

Fire burned from my stomach to my chest,
As I remembered your eyes, your skin, your touch.
From thoughts of you my mind refuses to rest,

I never noticed when I started to love you so much.

There was no limit of what I'd do for you,
The simplicity of your presence made my day.

But when you looked at me you saw right through,
It was impossible for you to care for me that way.

I fell so hard and I fell so fast,

And I lost myself somewhere in between.

I knew it wasn't possible so I hoped the feeling wouldn't last,

Because I was just another girl to you, its all I've ever been.

But its like my mind was obsessed,

You'd be the place it always wandered to.

And you just remained oblivious and couldn't care less,

She was all you ever thought of, she was better and new.

Then I realized how much of nothing I meant to you,

You didn't need me anymore now that you had her.

I was struck with envy because I still loved you,

And it dawned on my how little of anything we ever were.

I think I'll always feel it, even if I deny it,

To me what we had was something special that I won't forget.

I still wish that maybe you cared for me just a little bit,

But loving you is something I'd never regret.

Being in love with you is like a mental disease,

Killing me quietly while driving me insane.

But I'd rather be stabbed by a thousand knives,

Than watch you walk away from me again. 

© Devi Ramnath