A Sign

A Sign

 

I wish you had given me a sign

Even though you had few words

Maybe an action

A motion

A look

 

I needed to know today

That you wouldn’t be here tomorrow

So that today I can make it count

Make it worth it

Make it last

 

I can’t forget the warmth leaving you

Coldness replacing

Life diminishing

 

Emptiness

 

Always carefree

Childish

A whirlwind bouncing around

But always kind

Always

 

You will be missed

Because you took the light with you

And now it’s just cold

Cold to the touch

 

All I could do was maintain physical contact

Like I used to

Because that’s all I know

And I wish

I wish

This last time

You could feel it

 

But I had to leave your coldness

With tears coating you

And my sorrow trailing out of the room

 

My love was left with you

My memories I take with me

 

But how I wish you had given me a sign

Because tomorrow

You wouldn’t be just a memory

You’d be reality

Author's Note

My boyfriend lost his dog a couple days ago, him and I went to the animal hospital and were in a room with a lifeless beautiful dog who was so full of life...of light.. it was the first time I ever saw him cry.

I spent time with the dog the day before he passed, he wasn't feeling well, kept pawing me, and I keep thinking right now maybe that was him telling me "Help me..I'm dying..please.." and I like an idiot didn't understand what he was trying to tell me.

Anyway guys sorry for rambling I'm usually way more professional in these notes. I'm just a mess right now.

Reviews

[A. Amos]

Love the way you shared your honest expression and feelings!