Tainted Pillow

Tainted Pillow

 

I don’t know how you do it

But you do it good

 

Leave me for months

Come back and act like nothing happened

And I’ll let you in

I missed you more than my denial can hide

 

I can’t reason with my mind

Can’t come up with excuses

I sugar coat your very existence

Your very need to be in my life

 

The late night talks

The emotions tainting my pillow

The fingers tightening around my sheets

All memories of you

 

I cut you out so clean

So easily

To do it again

I don’t think I can

 

The strength it took to do it once

Now to do it twice

It’ll rip me apart

Then what will you come back to next time?

 

You’ve found your way under my skin

Seven months worth of silence

Now a few words spoken

You’re flowing through my veins again

 

And I don’t know how you did it

But you did it good 

Reviews

[LuthienThalia]

That was perfect !

[once in love]

describes my love life too....~sigh~ excellent write!

[Joe Morris]

A beautiful piece, I found it to be an absolute joy to read. Touching and heartfelt :)

[Jolie Blossom]

My god... This describes perfectly my life. Why do we keep reopening doors that are meant to be shut? I did this for so long, an embarrassing long time. It does feel like tainted pillows and night time seems to be the predator. Very well written, I could really relate.

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

I know this feeling, which I wish I didn't! I hate that you know how it feels too. I can't stand how a person can leave, hurt us, then come crawling back after so much time expecting us to accept them back into our life. Which of course by then we do it, since we missed them so much and couldn't imagine living any longer without them. I always wonder how they do it. In my mind like you mentioned in your poem, I sugar coat their excuses and let them off of the hook each time. I let them hurt me over and over again and expect to be happy. This poem unraveled feelings that I haven't been able to express in many ways. Thank you for sharing :))

Ashley Rivers--Dream BIG and you'll win BIG:)

[Junert]

Know that feeling.

[gombeggar]

i know that feeling

[Coyote Poetry]

When I was young and in the Army. Got back with the same woman three times in a period of 8 years. I believe distance kept us safe and interesting. I like the thoughts in this poem. Funny how some people can come and go in a life. I like the ending to the excellent poem.
Coyote

[afra]

2nd last stanza was the best ....i love it ..well done

[Hester Vane]

You know I am a fan of your work and this is why! A great emotional piece. Excellent use of rhyme and structure. I just loved the line 'I missed you more than my denail can hide'! Brilliant!