You're welcome I say to myself

You're welcome I say to myself 

probably because I am the only one that will, today is a very bad day, which isn't a good thing I am tired both mentally and physically though I slept last night more that most other nights. It isn't exactly like my brain is trying to tell me that i am tried more so my body is heavy, I have to put in more than two times the effort just to smile or raise my arms. I feel like i am physically sinking into the chair I am stuck in for these whole eight hours. I'm unsure why I feel this way nothing too horrible has happened that I can think of, the worst part of it is I can't even bring myself to be happy that I am seeing my boyfriend today, that he has gotten me a gift. The amount of metal instability I have is about as loud as the music I am blaring trying to make the people around me seem like a fuzzed memory. I don't know if it is just today but I have been pushed or knocked into more than five times and none of them even put in an effort to say so much as oops or oh sorry, nothing. I don't understand I mean yesterday wasn't real good but better than this I am tired, soo tired, goodnight.