exhaustion

Exhaustion (2-2-16)

My exhaustion is far more than sleep

It is something that has taken over me

My mind wonders to the darkest of places

And can no longer form the faces

Of those who once loved me

But there was really none I could see

This exhaustion was caused by the voices in my head

Telling me I'd be better off dead

No they're not actually real

But to me it's how it feels

This exhaustion is due to not wanting to eat

For a fear the food will kill me

The fear of gaining just a pound

Beats at me like a viscous sound

DON’T EAT THAT hear it’s shouts

There's no way I can get out!

This exhaustion is due to wanting to cut

Because I could never be enough

And his haunting words eat away at my soul

And there was no room for me to grow

This exhaustion is due to depression

Did you even have to question?

All those voices telling me to die

Again why should I even try

This exhaustion is due to never being enough

And people tell me that I'm loved

But I'm not a fool

Because from what I've seen this world is cruel

So no, sleep won't take away this exhaustion

In fact it makes it worse