Paralyzed

When I closed my eyes,

my mind traveled to a nightmare,

a frozen world where no hope or dreams exist.

Everywhere I looked,

there was nothing but darkness,

no light was able to touch this world,

the cold winds howling wildly

sending chills down my spine. 

Unable to open my eyes
I felt like I was becoming a prisoner

unable to move forward,

I felt the icy cold winds freezing me into place.

Loneliness begin to creep within my heart

making me lose a grip of myself,

unable to remember who I was
slowly forgetting the meaning of love

fighting against this paralyzing world

all the colors faded to grey,
unable to move,
I became another prisoner

will I ever find my way back?

I don't want to continue living like this,
because I know deep inside me,
I still have hopes and dreams
but if I allow myself to stay this way

I'll lose not just myself, but everyone else.

The longer I stay where I stand

allowing the loneliness takes over me,

allowing darkness to cloud my heart,

turning me into someone I don't recognize.

Loneliness begin to creep within my heart

making me lose a grip of myself,

unable to remember who I was
slowly forgetting the meaning of love

fighting against this paralyzing world

all the colors faded to grey,
unable to move,
I became another prisoner

will I ever find my way back?

Paralyzed for years,

living in the darkness I cursed myself,

I felt I had enough of being a victim
I need to let go of my past

and begin to live in the present,
forcing myself to face my greatest fears
to break my old habits
the act of indulging self-pity,
I will regain confidence and self-worth.

Remembering my dearest memories

allowing me to regain my strength,

enabling me to fight back
against the loneliness,

slowly the warmth I used to feel

begin to overwhelm my being,

allowing me to open my eyes

becoming unparalyzed.

Obtaining all the hopes and dreams I had,

facing forward, I will never look back

from here on out, all I can do is move forward

and breathe in life,
learning from all my mistakes,

I will grow and bloom
to the person I was always meant to be.