My Weakest Strength

So many emotions, I've locked in my heart,

no matter how many times I want to speak,
my silences overpowers my voice.

It's so hard to face you,

every time I look at you,

the memories of all the pain you caused me,

clouded my judgment,
this is why is so hard to talk you.

As the years passed us by,

solitude became my sanctuary,

no matter how much I tried to please you,

nothing seems to be enough.

All my life I've been the black sheep,
nothing I've could of done for you to notice me,

nothing I've ever said that would satisfy you,

you always opposed of me (notice me)

I've wasted all my energy all these years,
just so I can hear you say "I'm proud of you."

All my life you saw me as rebellious,
but all I wanted is for you to look at me,
and see me,for the person I've become,

but your heart only grew colder.

As the years passed us by,

solitude became my sanctuary,

no matter how much I tried to please you,

nothing seems to be enough.

Slowly I begin to lose myself,

my body had grown so tired,

this endless war, I know I'll never win,

I hope one day, you'll understand me

and accept me for who I am.

No matter how many times I've tried

to mend our relationship,
you couldn't let go of my mistakes,
the scorn in your eyes, pierced my soul
but no matter how many scars
you've left in me, I still love you.

I close my eyes and I stand still,

trying to find the spark I once had,

I've grown weaker, I'm tired fighting this,

I hope one day, you'll understand

why I stop following you,

I need to find my own path in this life.

One day I hope you can face me,
and accept me, until that day
I'll be waiting for you.

It's so hard to face you,

every time I look at you,

the memories of all the pain you caused me,

clouds my judgment.

As the years passed us by,

solitude became my sanctuary,

no matter how much I tried to please you,

nothing seems to be enough.