Half Alive

You tell me I'll be so beautiful

if I lose those extra pounds,

maybe fix my nose, and lift my cheekbones,

so I can fell alive like everyone else.

If I shed my skin like a snake,

maybe become plastic like,

would you tell me I'm alive?

tell me, it will bring me the happiness
I've been searching for so long.

Am I crazy for trying to blend in?

should I lose myself

so I can be like everyone else?

I should hook myself to these strings

so you can play my emotions like a symphony
help me feel complete I want to feel alive

allow me become another doll

you can add to your collection.

You tell me I'll be so popular,

if I inject myself with your poison,
maybe fake it, till' I become another lie,

I can finally smile,

I finally feel alive.

I play your game, and I'm blinded hate
you sickened me with envy,
I'm feeling so insecure, insecure.

When I see my reflection,

I don't recognize the person looking back

am I blinded, by your insecurities?

I dig myself too far deep in this lie,

struggling to cut these strings,

I don't want to fit in

I want to break free,

let me be who I truly am.

Am I crazy for trying to blend in?

should I lose myself

so I can be like everyone else?

I should hook myself to these strings

so you can play my emotions like a symphony
help me feel complete I want to feel alive

allow me become another doll

you can add to your collection.

(I want to break free)