Fragments of Serenity

Fragments,
fragments of my memories
lingering within me

whispers of words,

words that broke my heart.

Words,

words of hate and let down
stuck on repeat,
devouring my peace of mind
erasing my serenity.

I stand still floating in the sea
the taste of salt lingers in my tongue,

the taste that reminds me

of every tear I shed.

The happiness I used to know 

seems to float further away form me

the harder I try to reach it

the whispers come back 

and they are stuck on repeat.

No matter how hard I've tried,

I can't keep myself steady

no matter how much I cry

I still try to smile.

I tried already,

but I still cry,

I tried,

to keep a smile.

The whispers rob the colors

from my world,

and I tried to fight it,

whispers of hate and let down

devours my serenity.

The whispers,

robs me from clarity
the whispers

stuck on repeat,

and I will try,

I will try,

I'll try to bring back

my serenity. 

But it feels like a wasted time.