Forever Gone

If I portray what everyone else wants me to be

would I become myself or turn into someone else?

Should I be thankful for all the pain I have endure?

Or should I run away, ignoring what the outcome might be.

Sometimes I look at my reflection

wondering who is the person looking back at me,

the sense of knowing who I am is now forever gone

thinking I will turn into myself someday 

but I feel I'm turning into someone else.

Would you call out my name

so I can remember who I am.

"You need to do what is best for you"

so they say,

but it seems each year that passes me by

everyone's actions seem to contradict their words

how could I return to my own self?
if all the voices I hear speaking to me are just lies.

The tears I shed for so long

they seem to dry up

leaving no trace upon my face.

The fear I felt of losing myself

seems to grow stronger
leaving me lost and alone.

If you could stop me from fading
would you tell me the truth?

Even when I try to curse out the world

I somehow seem to transform it into a thank you

the unknown feeling of finding my own self

is becoming more clear by every lie i heard

in the end, by the time you realize
that I always I been there

I will be forever gone.

I take in a deep breath

recalling all the lies and pain, as I realize

all my struggles changed me for the better,

I look back at my reflection 

as a soft voice whispers, "thank you"

"You need to do what is best for you"

so they say,

but it seem each year that passes me by

everyone's actions seems to contradict their words

the unknown feeling of finding myself
is becoming more clear by every lie I heard,
in the end, all I want is to reconnect with myself.

Would you call out my name

even though by the time you realize I been there

I'll be forever gone.