Within the Ashes

Here I am playing another game

thinking what if I decide to take my last breath,

times like this seems like the best way to go.

I'm wondering how did I came this far,

what have I done to walk down this path,

sometimes I wonder if I have been fair,

or if fallen to far from my virtues

and I condemn myself to an agonizing prison.

Forget my existence,

forget we met

sooner or later 

my memory will fall to shreds.

Take a closer look at what I've become

I doubt you would ever recognize

take a long glance because soon I'll be gone

express a last smile because soon I'll be no more

the embers from this dying fire

are claiming what always had

and in the ashes

is where I will forever hide.

My dignity is no more

the precious dreams I ever had

will perish within the ashes 

as the dying flame in my heart dims

my last breath will be taken from me.

Don't shed tears for the unworthy,

don't shed tears for me because I don't deserve them

look around there's more to the world 

but I cannot longer move on,

my days on this earth soon will be gone.

Take a closer look at what I've become

I doubt you would ever recognize

take a long glance because soon I'll be gone

express a last smile because soon I'll be no more

the embers from this dying fire

are claiming what always had

and in the ashes

is where I will forever hide.

My memory will be washed away in the rain

the days that will no longer be lived, 

are the days the sun will shine brighter,

the flame within this world 

will shine brighter than ever

the last sacrifice of a mortal soul was made

and forgotten I will remain.

Take a closer look at what I've become

I doubt you would ever recognize

take a long glance because soon I'll be gone

express a last smile because soon I'll be no more

the embers from this dying fire

are claiming what always had

and in the ashes

is where I will forever hide.

Reviews

[Zoya]

This is full of emotions! Yeah, you've actually written down your feelings. The repetition of that stanza makes it stronger. Very well written!

[Mika =^-^=]

thank you.

[T0TS]

What fun is that when no one gets to know your wonderful soul...and you do have a beautiful light...channel that energy to your positive light...and let your voice be heard. Write on. ;)

[Mika =^-^=]

Thank you.

[T0TS]

You're very welcome...sorry, I was preachy but I believe your voice hasn't been heard. It's up to you to let yourself be known

[Mika =^-^=]

I know, and what do you mean? You can message me if you wish.

[T0TS]

Oh, I transparent...I meant life can be upsetting...but just take a deep breath and just relax...and then come back to yourself differently...break that depression or grips ...and it gets darker...life is fun, that's all :)

[Mika =^-^=]

i was having a dark time yesterday.

[T0TS]

It's okay...hey you wrote about it and that helps. :)

[Mika =^-^=]

yep ^^ better than cutting myself, right?

[T0TS]

Yes, it actually is...I sing lie and pretend I understand cutting and I've read my fair share on this site...but I know you'll find positive hobbies to get out of your head. That's what it is...you are too into your head. :)

[Mika =^-^=]

I sing, and I write usually helps, but good news I haven't cut since I was 15, now I'm almost 24

[T0TS]

That is good news, sweetie...keep it like that...and believe in yourself. There's an old saying, ' you choose your attitude' :)

[Mika =^-^=]

haha thank you.I been trying...is hard but im working on it haha

[T0TS]

You'll get there...one day, you'll look in the mirror and say, 'I'm one badass B***h. And I can't be stopped.' :)

[Mika =^-^=]

i hate what i see though...

[T0TS]

Awww why? I see beauty in you...but that is important, you have to know yourself, to understand your own personal beauty. :)

[Mika =^-^=]

i don't know...

[T0TS]

And that saddens me. :(

Because you are very beautiful...and I hope one day you see that. :)

[Mika =^-^=]

maybe...i don't know...i think a lot have to do with my past

[T0TS]

I understand, the past can be hard to let go, but when you are ready to move on, you'll see that you've become a better person for it from the wisdom gained. :)

[Mika =^-^=]

i been ready for years now

[T0TS]

Okay, start right now, if not, start tomorrow...you have the power to change. And that's empowering once you gain that realization.

[Mika =^-^=]

i know i do. I had realized that but is not happening

[T0TS]

It takes time...I know in this age of acceleration everything needs to be instant gratification...but things take work...a lot of it is hard work...but you don't quit..

[T0TS]

It's sad, in the days of technology we are less human...you and I are demonstrating how human are...by communizing, by merely having a conversation...that people do care even in the coldness of technology.

[Mika =^-^=]

i know...and work? i think i need more than that

[Mika =^-^=]

I completely understand.

[T0TS]

Well, message me if you ever feel down...and yes work...it works lol chat w/ u later

[Mika =^-^=]

okay ^^ nice chatting with ya

[T0TS]

Ditto sweetie