Good Bye Past Self

A Poem by Mika =^-^=

Every time I close my eyes

you seem to creep inside my head,
forcing the painful memories to flow inside my mind.

Your stare seems lifeless,
Your face seems pale,
why you still linger in me?

I want to forget you,
but you don't seem to let me go
I want to forget you and your memory
but can you let go?

If I forget you would I forget myself? If I lose the sense of who I am would I come back the same? the more I try to forget, you seem to be there but if I decide to go and leave you behind would I end up losing myself?

If I go and change would the world see me the same way? The longer you linger within me the tears slowly begins to creep down my face cutting me like razor blades.

Please tell me what you want from me? hearing you takes me back to the past; I don't want to become you, so just go now, just go go go.

I want to forget you,
but you are a part of me
I want to forget you and your memory
but can I? can I?

Looking at you makes me realize you are the younger version of me, your lifeless eyes were once my eyes, your emptiness was once mine you are my past, but I must let you go.

I know now that losing you I won't lose myself, I will find a better version of me after all these years you still linger in me, but now is time to heal, I forgive you, I forgive you, now let me go.