I want to Live

Those people who you called freaks, stupid, crazy, mentally sick...... taught me a valuable lesson .... to treasure my life

My mind is in confusion

They always order me to calm down

The hell they never get a clue from this frown

Because everything they say results to my frustration

 

Everyone’s telling me how to live my life

Their words and my desires are in strife

I want to speak up

But my courage was never enough

 

Sometimes I want to be loose

To be on the verge of blowing up

With these pressure, stress, sadness, and anxiety bubbling up

Every time they disagree to whatever I choose

 

Every time they cross the line
I want to lose my temper

To just blow over

But I’m never able to let it out, I kept it inside

 

I know it wasn’t anyone else’s mistake

I was the one who’s wasting every chance I take

I just let them rule my time

And I thought everything would be fine

 

Right now, I just want to find my own

To make my decisions alone

I want to be free of the things I can’t

And to look foward of the things I want

 

 

 

   I just want to live

 

 

Author's Note

I want to:

to read a book, to read a poem, write screenplays, write poems, eat lasagna, eat vanilla ice cream, drink coffee, watch a movie, watch an anime, join ballroom dancing, play games with my brothers, chat with my sister, hug mama, kiss papa on the forehead, date with my man, listen to music, have fun with my friends, study, talk, scream, cry madly, sigh, walk, run, jump so high, fly??? dream, smile, laugh,
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Breathe.
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LIVE

Reviews

[Pax]

i like this, and it kinda reflect the life of others and mine, so your not alone. I've just learned how to lived up with my own dreams not someones expectation from us. so live the life you want it to be. wonderful write

[Jed Sabffle]

Don't let others control you. This is your life.. And you have the every right to do what you want. Always remember, You're position in life's path is in the driver's seat. And you are the master of your soul.
Well, I'm just driven by this poem! :))
Flowed smoothly. expressed perfectly
Nice job!

[Tomislav Petricevic]

This poem describes me, totally. Constantly being discriminated for being different and making different choices, but always keeping it inside. But of course, everyone has a limit of how much they can take. So, eventually, I break and explode, and when I do, it usually bears some result. People tend to listen more carefully if you start raging around. :D But that's just me.
Anyways, this is an amazing poem! There aren't enough praises to express how much I liked it! :)

[Kuhr Gred]

the best :)

[closed..acct]

I must say I know how this feels. I used to suffer from depression.
My meds helped me a bit that and telling myself There is no sense
to let myself worry about things. Things always happen for a reason
I can't stop it. Amazing write!

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Always live a righteous life...
love the poem :D

[Thea]

Heehee, nice, lola...You can always do whatever you want as long as you are ready to take all the risks, might be happiness or sadness...Inspired eh? Haha! Great work!
:)))

[Coyote Poetry]

Sometime we must stop. Think and re-set our life. In the end all decisions are our decisions. No-one can force you to think or act unless you have some desire for the task. When you feel trapped. Find a quiet place and think. Thank you for the excellent poem.
Coyote

[Raven Starhawk]

I can say in all honesty that I feel the same way. Sometimes we have people in our lives that just like to brings us down and control what we do, say and everything. You have all these thoughts and feelings and you feel like you have to keep them under wraps because if you don't then all hell will break loose. O_O Maybe I am just reading too much into it, but anyway this was good.

[Chris]

It seems so little to ask...