Desperation

I move through the halls of my mind as the memories echo
I try to understand
just understand

I hear myself calling out
so many words
so many feelings

And I cant let go long enough
to hear my heart fall
again
and again

Dropping, hearing my self run
I feel that cold breath
on my shoulder


So I breathe harder
waiting to see something

substantial


something worthwhile

Only the last moments
whisper on my tender breath
Singing softly that
Immense redemption
that ive sought these long cold years



When i look to your face all I see is your eyes

That cold green stare,
When you look right through me
and see
Every past memory
with disgust,
looking down upon me with
The deepest sorrow under your breath

I've reached down as far as I can to save this.
To look into you purely as your own mind,
and know as much as I ever can that I have found
Forgiveness


But I know no God
And I know no Evil

 Does this mean i know no good
I cant make up in my mind
The raucous words that need to be said.
I cant find the serene words that must be spoken

so I sit in silence
Waiting for the remainder of your thoughts,
So when you stare so lightly
asking me a simple question
I wont look at you with horror
and contemplate the world




I dont know what to think about when so many thoughts
Stalk through my mind like giants
Smashing stars,
I cant quiet my mind long enough to find the meaning of this.

Maybe somewhere someone will understand,
and I will be at peace,
if anything will ever make sense
to me again.

Reviews

[Robin]

this a search for the meaning of life , a redefintion of whats important - answers come , in time

[Miss Coral]

Gorgeous piece... a stream of thought that leads us on a wandering path of emotion. I would look at the grammar inconsistencies you have in here.. but that's about it. Nice job! :)

Coral

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This really is a deep subject for some and you hit just the right spot. Enjoyed this.

[Cynthia]

Beautiful Writing!
I enjoy reading it.

[Crusaderscross]

Really good poem you wrote here. A lot of emotions but quite simple and direct I find anyway. Really enjoyed reading this piece.

[Jonathan De Elvira]

Well written....
been there, done that...Glad I'm done having crush with her...

[theceltnextdoor]

beautifully written. very impressive writing style. I really enjoyed it.

[Sports Girl]

wow i loved this one. I love the emotion i can feel from it and how i can relate to it. Nice job

[Randolf Ramos]

This poem, ahh! that captivates this emotion, pricks me from within.
This is beautiful

[Candylove.]

this is hit me like, a ton of bricks. The emotion is just so profound. I felt this poem on such a deep level...captivating work. It was a pleasure for me to read this. Beautiful. :)