Boundaries

Need for intimacy, lack of commitment.

Boundaries

I want to feel your warmth encompass me

I want to escape this life momentarily

I want to feel this disease, this toxicant;

Pretend it's love, the generic flocculant.

I want to pretend your breath is my oxygen.

I want to stop in this moment, and keep it frozen.

I want to lay down, right here.

Greedily, pull you near.

I want to stay forever, in your strong arms.

Without the L word, blaring with alarms.

I want to feel safe, and still feel the lust.

Without that gripping terror of being cuffed.

I don't want to think about the future.

Don't you dare tell me to look at the big picture.

I just want to feel this moment. 

Escape this reality, escape the torment.

I can't chain myself to you...

But I know I can't have you, and the key in my hand too.

So that's why I'll stay wanting.

Let the thought of you carry on haunting.

I'll relish in my imagination.

I'd rather drown in my tears of frustration,

than in the rancid perspiration,

that comes with infatuation.

I'd rather crave you;

than deprave you.

Everlasting love is what you deserve

Not my broken heart, the barren reserve.

 

So when I look away, and clench my jaw.

It's not because I don't want you, it's against my law.