Feelings

The feeling of feeling nothing 

how could 1 minute on top of the world 

 the next crying on the bathroom floor

the questions start to form in the brain 

"what's happening?" What is this feeling?"

questions that can't be answered 

Adults say it's just a phase 

Therapist says to take pills 

always trying to fix something that isn't broken 

trying to heal something that can't be healed 

nothing could make this feeling go away 

happiness comes and goes with this feeling 

1 minute it's all smiles and giggles 

the next a dark cloud starts to form overhead 

the feeling never goes away 

always having to fake the smile 

always having to hide the pain and feeling 

always wearing a mask around the people who care the most

There is no explanation for feeling nothing 

when in the morning there is no reason to get out of bed 

some call it "un-motivated" 

others call it "depression" 

but the truth is the feeling of numb

 is the hardest thing to hide from people 

the world keeps spinning and everything comes crashing down 

the fall of life and love 

watching while everything and everyone goes away 

leaving behind the person they use to know