My Thoughts

Randoms about love, lust, n relationships

I have a habit of putting my all into a relationship,
and even though I know that to be fact.
I could never get with giving myself wholeheartedly,
and not getting that s**t back.

And by relationship,
it's not just past lovers I mean.
Friends, and family arent excluded,
and no one is what they seem.

One 'friend' was an actor,
real good at it too.
Was quick to bring up tears,
and I couldnt see they werent true.

Making friends with ya ppl's ex,
can only lead to trouble.
Cause sheisty hoes will bring you down fast,
leaving you stranded in the rubble.

Had an ex that needed to grow up,
another who was only good for a f**k.
Had one who thought I was stupid,
like he could treat me like some sort of cluck.

I've loved unconditionally,
did everything to prove my heart true.
Took me a whole damn year
to get over that one too.

Never quite did,
cause the damage is still there.
Never get used to living with no heart,
or breathing with no air.

Gave away the key to my heart once,
but I never will again.
Changed the locks, destroyed the key,
no one is welcome in.

I dont know how to open up again,
dont even think i want to.
Tired of trying to be in love by myself,
cause honestly it takes two.

Love shouldnt be meaningless,
it shouldnt be a game.
But no matter how it starts,
it all ends the same.

I end up with everything to lose,
and not a damn thing to gain.
It's only when I leave,
does s**t change.

Friends and lovers want to be let back in,
it feels nice to be missed.
But why couldnt you try to save the relationship
when you had it?

I fight for what I love,
but no one fights for me.
That is, until the fight is over
and I've wasted all my energy.

My heart has given its last,
and cried its last tear.
Happiness is nonexistent,
and love isnt welcome here...

So for now I'm back to doing me...
being the person I used to be.
The one to initiate last,
and disappear first.

I'm looking for lust,
I'm done with love.
Until the next one that crosses my path
shows me that it's really worth giving
love a try again.

Reviews

[BLACKCRUSH]

I agree with you when you say that people always want you more when you leave them. I don't understand why they just cant act right before you leave them.
" Never quite did,
cause the damage is still there.
Never get used to living with no heart,
or breathing no air."
The writer really lets you in on the pain she feels after trying to work out each relationship, its very painful. I think overall this was a great write!