The night episodes

love is crazy

The night was still and chilly, i could see moonlight seeping into my room through the window. I lay on my bed alone, i listened no voice not even whisper reached me. I was the only moving creature, the only one awake in that house. I had tried my best to force myself to sleep, but sleep just won't come. I remained on the bed, void of sleep and restless in every sense. I had placed this curse on myself, when love is not reciprocated the ensuing heart ache is hard for even the strongest man on earth to withstand.
Thoughts of her kept flashing through my mind, what i seems not to understand is why i find it so hard to bar those thoughts. What had been her charm, is it just one feature of hers? If that be the case i might someday be free of this love. I however won't deceive myself, her whole self is the charm and only her death could give me a second chance with another woman. I stood up went into my bathroom and splashed some water on my face, i had started to think devilish. I dried my face and moved back to my bed, i only have to settle for my usual resentment. I will only have to wait, that one day i'll wait no more. I've trusted hope and believed in fate, I've exhausted my says and left with diminished ways to act and show love. I know this night episodes will continue but this my heart i place in her hold she will someday replace it with hers in my hold. Lets see how fate will play his game.