Trepidation

/;Fear/;Love/

How can you be afraid of the dark, 

when your mother flicks the light switch off with ease, 

and cradles you 5 minutes before whispering

descriptions of lovely scenes. 

How can you be afraid of spiders, 

who have only 6 more legs and eyes than you and me,

their beating hearts so rapidly trying to be discrete.

I'm not afraid of these things. 

And that does not make me brave.

I'm afraid of losing time, 

and forgetting to smile, 

because I think that people like you find my attempt 

laughable. 

And maybe even 

disheartening, 

because I can't prove the feeling that disappears like fog.

I don't know the true definition of wrong. 

But looking in eyes like yours makes me feel like I am.

Because despite my compassion,

I lack the energy to express my 

satisfaction. 

The world holds me like a frayed shoelace,

and it's hard to remain.

Because despite quiet murmurs that love is strong,

I doubt my belief that it truly lives on.

Author's Note

-philophobia-

Reviews

[Pete]

A fantastic write. Great lines - "I'm afraid of losing time, and forgetting to smile". "because I can't prove the feeling that disappears like fog. I don't know the true definition of wrong". Favorite line - "The world holds me like a frayed shoelace". Great title. Really enjoyed this.

[Shygirl]

wow...amazing! I love it!

[Dan Hiland]

Samantha:

This piece is
Lyrical.
Powerful.
Lots of strong imagery.
Your "attempt" is anything but laughable.
Reminds me of how I've felt many times in my life.
Thank you for sharing.

[Samantha]

Thank you! ♣

[Rob Santana]

Great piece Samantha. I really like it. Cool profile pic by the way.

[Samantha]

Thank you + Thanks! ♣

[ARuth]

I love your piece. Relatable in my sense. Thanks for the great write!

[Samantha]

Thank you! ♣