SSDD

So done with this same old s**t.

Might be a different day, but it never quits--

Cuz I never quit, no always too scared

And that fear has gotten me absolutely nowhere.

You cannot change your own situation,

Not when you’re on self-instated probation.

Too scared to say screw you when I felt it,

Knew there’d be consequences so I held it

--In.  And now I’m trapped here on my own

Cuz everyone can see that I haven’t grown--

Just a timid boy hiding beneath sheets of silence.

Never been in a single fight, always feared the violence.

Same s**t, different day,

And it never seems to go away.

Never quit, never change my ways.

Never run when I can; No, I always pay

The price, The fee.

Not the bad boy, just a stupid boy

Who doesn’t have enough left for his stupid toys.

I never got any of those pretty girls

Cuz I always stuttered when they waved those pretty curls.

I never got those better jobs

Cuz I got scared of change and then was deemed a slob.

I fear the world that’s outside the door.

I want to take it all, but I am always too unsure.

I’ve got this voice that nags at the back of my head.

It’ll keep me from living.  It’s like I’m already dead.

I might as well be with how this seems to go

Cuz the fear ever gets worse and seems to grow.

Maybe I’ll change tomorrow or next week.

Although, time waits for now one, especially not the weak and meek.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I like the poem. A lot of frustration in the poem. Life can twist us up sometime. I like the good flow of thoughts and the strong ending. Thank you for the outstanding poetry.
Coyote