( I ) Crashed and Burned from Heaven

Dated a great guy, but apparently he did not feel the same... Therefore, here's how it happened, and how I'm dealing with it all...

 

I crashed and burned from heaven

with wings that were clipped

and dreams that were shattered

this is how he found me

although he couldn't see

that all it was I ever needed,

was someone to love

and someone who'd love me.

 

And so one day we started talking,

and walking side-by-side.

most of our moments were among friends,

but never-the-less, I never wanted them to end.

then one day he reached for my hand,

and I thought that I would die.

 

Then there was that very day 
that we shared our very first kiss

he was shy and afraid to say,

how soft my lips were that very day

most thought it to be odd,

but I had thought it sweet.

I considered him a blessing

and looked forward to the next time we'd meet

 

Then came Prom,

a night I'd remember forever.

we found our song

"Amazed", was what it was

as was I when I looked up

to see him singing it to me.

my heart began to melt, as he took me in his arms

how was I to know, that this would end, within a mere 10 days?

 

And so that very day comes

and it was my world that fell apart

I was talking to a friend of mine

waiting for a call from him

and then it came, and the line was switched

But then the words came out

and it quickly as it had began,

our time together fell apart

just as I fell upon my knees.

 

He heard me cry,

he heard me sob..

I asked him "why..?"

and he did not respond.

and that was that

he hung up 
and left me there

--- to cry ---

 

Then my friend - I called her back

She could not understand me

I could not understand myself...

What did I wrong..?

What sin had I committed?

"Too jealous"

"Too controlling"

I didn't do it all on purpose...

 

And so I went on 
barely living...

barely breathing...

my mind was always full of "him."

and my heart was full of pain.

I felt ashamed -

- for what I'd done

but I guess what was done was done..

 

But that feeling wasn't all that strong for long

for now I'm seeing him in my head again

and feeling like my heart was ripped in two

but yet slowly healing

I thought that I was over him

I thought that things were right

but the only things I'm feeling now -

are shame, damnantion, and lack of sanity. 

 

They say that fate knows what it's doing

and that all will eventually be well

I've got high hopes

which may be good, or perhaps it's not

But it felt so right to be with him

and hope that whatever comes out of this, comes out of my very heart

I may never make back to heaven,

but cloud-nine was close enough.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

thining of entering this into a contest
what do you think?