Finding Honesty

Just about finding who I am and just figuring out what I believe about myself, cuz this has been a tough year for me. Been left to wonder who I am and do I really believe in myself?

I'm finding honesty
In the midst of being alone and afraid
This lane I've travelled for so long
I know is long gone

And I see the overhead signs
Saying turn to avoid the pain
But what would I have to learn
If I listened to people's stories
Of how to start living again?

It's hard to describe
This gruelling task
Of trying to accomplish life
Figuring the flashing lights will save me
But only to find more pain
And I'm left finding who I am again

I feel my heart has softened
But this could be wrong yet again
I'm a ghost in this world
While everyone lives absurd
And crying to this planet is foreign
I'm ready to start living another plan

This world doesn't know sorrow
It just knows instant gratification
I'm trying to break free from this common belief
That this life is more than just about me

Author's Note

Again just a struggle wondering what I believe about mysel. Will I believe the opinions of others? Or will I trust in faith and keep moving forward despite what others may say or do