Creepy StalkerA Story by Decidious windJust an interesting short story.I like to keep my blinds open, all day, until I go to
bed. I like to imagine that some creep is watching my every move and the way I
brush my hair every morning before I go to class, and the way I read a chapter
from a book from my bedside table to sleep. That’s how desperate I am for some
attention. I am so lonely, and I know that there is no God watching over me, so
I resort to believing that some horny creep is jerking off to me right now. I know how unbelievably messed up I sound right now.
Trust me, I do. It’s not like I have a fetish for creeps, I’m actually quite
the opposite. My boyfriend suggests new and weird stuff to try, all the time, but
I always refuse, and I am so comfortable with just regular sex. That is the
type of person I am. I’m not sure why I enjoy the fantasy of there being
someone, out there, stalking me, because it’s very unusual. Maybe it’s because I feel neglected. Nobody ever has
time for me, and I don’t blame them. It’s my fault for moving to a different
corner of the world. It’s my fault for falling in love with someone who’s busy
all the time. There’s one thing, however, that is not my fault. The black hole
within. There was once a bountiful meadow there. One where peonies
and tulips grew together, and lovers made love to each other under a bright, spring
sky. Till one day a darkness invaded my essence. The day I was left to stand
alone in the rain, without any means of salvation. I was left to shiver in the
cold, and my screams weren’t heard, so I gave up on speaking all together. That’s
when the darkness spread to the very edges of the meadow and withered it into
smithereens. All that’s left is a hollow gap in my soul and since then, I’ve
used my wild imagination to conjure up illusions that there is something there.
I try to paint images to myself that there is no empty void but something more;
deep down I know that that’s all there is no matter how many illusions I draw
for myself. Tonight, I engage myself in that illusion by attempting
to confirm its reality. I stare out the window, pretending to watch the snow,
when really, I’m looking for my imaginary stalker. He’s not there. I don’t know
why that makes me sad. You’d think that I’d be happy that I’m safe, but all I
could think about is how not even a criminal is interested in me. Nobody is. It’s
pathetic how I’m drowning in my own self-pity but that’s all I’ve ever been.
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Added on April 12, 2019 Last Updated on April 12, 2019 Tags: short story, lonliness, despair, melancholy, winter, snow AuthorDecidious windAboutI am a writer A photographer And an artist. I've been writing ever since I was 9 years old. My dream is that my writing reaches someone's heart. Writing is a passion, not a hobby. I am also .. more..Writing
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