Existential Dread Ellipsis

Don't stay awake for too long, don't go to bed,

 I'll make a cup of coffee for your head- get you up n' going, out of bed.

                                                                   -deathbed

i don't want to go to bed

hitting the refresh button with existential dread

there goes your typing symbol, an ellipsis up, down, up, down.

over, and over, and over. we're playing this stupid game again-

spin the roulette and decide what mood you'll land

i know you've got problems, i do too

but you have to understand, it's not all about you

i've cried without you, i've cried for you, but never because of you

they always say there's a first for everything

i would prefer if this is the last..

it's been a few minutes, that ellipsis still flickers-

that existential dread still lingers

you distract me from me

soon i fell inside a hole i couldn't see

maybe if i scream you'll help me out-?

especially if i cower and plead

I dug the hole-

you dug the hole 

we dug the whole freaking hole

let's see if we can pull me out of my mind

i'll bet you a dollar you won't try

Author's Note

thanks for reading. not about anyone