A Letter to Myself

Dear Me,

This is you but from the future. 

First and foremost, I want to say that you make it out. Graduation is next week for me and, because I know you haven't heard this, I'm proud of you. You have so much potential and everyone will tell you that they're shocked you're even graduating. You'll hear that from your own parents, but I want you to know I'm not. I believed so much that we would make it out. 

Even though I know that you are going through the worst parts of your depression and you feel like dying, I want you to know that there is no reason to. You are important. 

You f**k up a lot, true, and your senior year of high school is probably the worst ever but it's all over now and you did it. 

Take care of yourself. 

I love you.

Dear Future me, 

Whatever you're doing now, thank you for not giving up when everything is trying to work against you. Thank you for not killing yourself because I know I'll probably go through it again and again. Never stop going. KEEP MOVING. You are a force to be reckoned with and I'm proud to be you. 

I love you.

P.S. Please eat healthy and get out of bed sometimes, even if it's just to take a shower. Don't skip work and gain some confidence for us. Don't worry about falling in love, we don't need that. 

{Add on}

I just want you to know that love is an okay thing, and I'm doing just fine. Haven't gotten that job yet but I know what I want to do in my life. It's only been a few months but I met this boy who makes me very happy. 

And even though these friends of mine are awful, I love them to death.

Never let them go.

{Add on}

Ok, so your friends left you and watched you crash and burn. They didn't care but you got over it which I'm proud of you for that. But, you'll have to thank your amazing boyfriend for being there with you while that s**t went down. And he makes you really, really happy. It's hard that he isn't here and is up in New Hampshire but you guys still watch movies together even though it's hard to do over the phone. But you'll be seeing him soon and it'll be great. 

Also, you see more of Amber, which is good because I know how much you missed your best friend. And she's doing fine. 

To future me: Get. A. Job. Keep applying and meeting people.

{Add on}

Hey! So life is pretty much the same except your amazing boyfriend now brings you up to see him up in New Hampshire. It's fun, you meet some pretty cool people and it's a lot easier to watch movies in person than over the phone (you still do that but not as often). Also, you watch a lot of game shows. Which is...ok. 

Also, I think you'll marry him because honestly, he's literally the greatest person in the entire universe. 

 

I love you.

Keep Going.

Reviews

[Jane P.]

Hey, I know this letter is really personal, but I think it's great.

You are actually setting goals and making plans, and I'm sure you'll achieve all of this.

I know a lot of these emotions really well and it is an ongoing battle that you never quite win, only because you can never be fully rid of negative feelings. However, you're talking about making changes and keeping up a healthy mindset.

Just really hope you feel better and all these goals become a reality. You deserve it.