~ Pissing Off The Gods~

I must have messed up this time

maybe I pissed off the Gods too

many times with promises of

devotion , maybe I'm not what

they want.

 

Defective,Diseased,Unsightly

 

I went into the box and asked 

for forgivness for that sin 18

years ago, I thought I was 

pardoned sorry is always the

name. I was Sorry..... I still am

 

Maybe this is my punushment 

if its like this now will it be worse

after the lights go out , do they

just go out?

Will I get a reprive for time and

suffering served .

 

THIS PAIN IS TOO INTENSE 

 

I'm not really sure how much 

more I can bare , thruthfully

The pills you ask?? Ha Yea

well they dont work really

Can'teven get a buzz to

forget for a while, yet they

dominate my life.

 

I must have pissed someone off

it's the only thing I can come up

with, what other reason for all

this PAIN , my whole life .....

 

It's building to a creshendo

thats getting ready to exsplode

in a big way. I feel it coming and

when it does ... DUCK....

because it's gonna be Messy

 

By: Debbie Mills Kelly

 

This is not a feel sorry for me piece...

Iknow alot of people suffer. Its just

what came out of my head last night

and ended up... bleeding out onto 

the paper. Thank you !!

 

I also want to add !!!

 

I love all of u and I thank u very much. I am NOT mad @ GOD. I love him its just a writer pouring out her soul and frustration in the moment. To my non writer friends fear not. It just a raw write in a raw moment. I did put a disclaimer lol. I love u for caring. I hope from a writing stand point I hope it showed im not afriad to shed my shield. I also have much compassion and love for fellow pain suffers. Its just been REALLY bad lately and this bled from my pen. THANK U

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Tate Morgan]

regrets are our conscience they allow us to feel bad about mistakes.However confession as i see it being a catholic is a waste of time .In my mind some things are good to take to the grave with you,.They allow the mind to correct the behavior later in life.We all have them we all learn from them No one can take the guiolt away and they shouldnt try It is good that it hurts That means your conscience works

[Debbie_Philly]

This piece was written in such desperation for a bout of pain I was going through that was sooo acute i wanted to throw myself out a window.... i was just in so much pain... I wrote it out... now I dont blame God or anyone for it... it was just something I had to get out :) Thank you again Tate... and yes Im catholic too... i get what your saying there !!! :)

[Tate Morgan]

Life is one thing for sure Unfair But god doesnt control that anymore than he controls the good we have he simply if he exists simply watches from afar and uses nature to govern the outcome

[Debbie_Philly]

I agree Tate !!! :)

[Iamnothingnew.]

Beauitful. Tells a kick a*s story in my opinion.

[Debbie_Philly]

Thank you so much Lamnothingnew.... It means allot that you read and review my words... and Im on my way to read you ;) thanks again !!

[Michael X]

you execute the emotion perfectly, the vivid image you posted
collaborates, the sense of self illusion to the point of suffering,
powerful, you have talent, the emotion is felt in every sentence

[Debbie_Philly]

Michael thank you so much for all of your reviews... they give me so much inspiration.... I was writing it out of the pain I was in at the time so I guess it came through.... thank you again... its a very big compliment to have the reader feel what you felt writing it !! :)

[Debbie_Philly]

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