My radio

This piece was written during a pretty chaotic relationship I had with a girl. The emotions and issues that led to its breakup find their way into a lot of its lines.

My radio

Too many times and too many words

reveal the answers in my lies,

I swore I'd never hurt again until I

let you see how much I cared,

just another time when I failed to see

the actions in my thoughts-

 

the indifference that shattered

like a shell I hadn't known before,

that I hadn't known I wore,

 yet listen here, listen if you

think it's you I'm mourning for

you haven't known me long.

 

 There is another who scarred me long before,

new scars on old wounds only numb

what wasn't raw,

 

You can't hurt me child

 

Too many times and too many love songs

they don't sound like they did before,

my soul aching now I know I wasn't wrong

 

This flesh crawls, this mind bends

around the river bends and I don't

know what empty fields it's looking for,

some aloneness I know we crave.

 

 Listen here child there is nothing

you are breaking that isn't broken but

with you I thought I could forget

 

You said I love you,

said it sweetly but made me wonder

 far too often

 

Too much anger,

too much anger,

I love you,

Don't you mean I want you different?

Change for me?

Too many love songs,

I think I've heard it all so I stood up and

reached out to switch my radio off.

Reviews

[livetowrite]

a very sad poem indeed. very well written thanks for sharing,

[Glen Yumang Manese]

Spills out in the lines...
does not hold back a bit...
and in the end...
you simply shut off the static...