The Cherub in the Garden

The Divine God

I'm speaking of my experience with adolescence … in the way its identified with cherubs. I'm not sure … how much of it... will make sense to the uninitiated … but I'm reporting it the way I experienced it. Its been an issue that's been convoluted with half-wishes … half-truths … and even the manner of reporting on the experience … has brought ridicule to me in the past. But at this time … I'm saying it feels real to me … and yesterday … he appeared in a manner of presence … and had me thinking … someone was in the room with me … going about his business.

 

I had first encountered him in my teens … as an individual who bordered on the magic and the divine. I couldn't verbalize the experience clearly … and came to rely on a hotch potch of expressions … that didn't make much sense … but was hooked onto my teen enthusiasm for possibilities. It appears to me that … my main concern ... at that time ... was that … others may not have not heard of it … and are tantamount to dismissing me … regarding my attitude on that.

 

By the time I came across … references to cherubs in the legends … the Judeo-Christian practices … Adonais … Venus on a Swan … I was all but distant from being able to relate to it. But the birth of my child … and her growing years … brought something to me … in the nature of a return to basic principles … of the passions … that rekindled my interest in the cherubs. Indic references to little Krishna … in the garden of Brindavanam … continued its traces of the contact … with cherubs.

 

My Oriental friends … that I went to school with … and those that surround me as neighbors … create a similar contact … with the cherub idea. But they make it clear … that they have gone to great lengths to manage the experience … and would rather … attend to it as the impersonal nature of the Tao … that avoids any mention of a person in relation to their experiences. This avoidance is highly acute in the Oriental experience … and is not without some sharp responses from their part … to dismiss any reported attachment to it … to the point of avoiding any public display of affections.

 

It occurred to me then … that … that which makes up the simplicity and familiarity of the cherub experience … in any individual … is also the most difficult to bring into rational account of its experience. Its like a mirage … mists that disappear when you get close … and the irascible sense of them being your very thoughts … when you get close enough to comment on them. It is the eros impulses … of the body … brought to a high and low … liking and disliking … of all that we enter into engagement with.

 

It brought me to ponder on the plan of the Indic experience … the way … the Indics have avoided an overt intellectual tradition … or scientific based theories … that point to the engagement of mind. Instead they spent the last so many thousand years … relating on the basis of passions … and have formed incredible schemes of relations with cherubs … in their social … and divine experiences … that are quite considerable.

 

Its got so … that an average Indic individual … speaks to them sub-consciously … of his wants … and intentions … in respect of his actions and decision making. In the current mood of reason and politically correct perspectives … it has changed somewhat. However … in returning now to engage the cherubs … with knowledge … in areas that we related purely as friends … its persuaded the cherubs in my contacts … to attempt to comply with knowledge.

 

This brings me today … to a new level of relations with the passions … founded on a knowledge base … that is not the intellectual tradition. It has therefore been my obligation to build a new base of knowledge … regarding what I am encountering. The basic premise of this knowledge … is a cognition that the magic aspect of the passions … relates to a new specie … to be birthed in the future. On my part as human … my mind relates to the aspects of social relations … and divinity notions … in another part of the passions.

 

The experience has certainly sharpened my intellect … but is defined as human understanding … and is allied with the protocols surrounding human conduct only. In comparison to the intellectual tradition … cultivated as part of the academic tradition … it differs on one significant aspect. Science and the academic tradition … present a weak summation of what an individual personality is. Freud attempted the exercise … but got bogged with parts of the thesis … that became strenuous as to meaning … and related to deviations of mind ... not normal daily living.

 

I define the experience as human … that is founded on a base of relations between man and the creative energies … we sometimes call magic. In respect of the creative energies … I am defining the experience as mom … a term to refer to the female principles … that form the initiatives of the creative energies. Any man's familiarity with the same … is translated as divine interventions … that contains an element of the female sexual energies … drawn from the magical experience.

 

Hence the Indic experience of divinity … is narrowed into the feminine form as mother … or an adolescent who is non-gender specific … like an Eros … Krishna ... Pan … Adonais … or a semblance of the eternal youth. I'm working on placing such an eros sculpture in the garden … of an adolescent chasing a butterfly … and that will be the representation of my belief of a God divine. And in the evenings and nights … I would love to sit there … and share with him our views about life. And I figure … there will always be … the hint of a female … somewhere in the vicinity.