A U Turn at Utopia

I don't think anyone goes there anymore. Its a place of peace and equanimity … that is engaged by vegetarians … and over indulgent romantics … who turn it into a learning experience for children … with stories of bears … and chocolate factories. Milton brought an attempt to it … to portray the experience … as a possible world achievement … in Paradise Lost ... and to represent it as a part of human personality … we yet have little experience with. But there's certainly miles to go with that.

 

But ignoring it proves just as tricky … when we pull on the chest … and brave it through the work we have to do … whether that's in school … a business corporation … or in the military. Everyone remembers a brother … or friend … who had a curious adolescence of dreams … and never fully recovered. Later he drops out of school … hangs out alone … until someone places him in a job … arranges for a date … and eventually set up a home.

 

I wish I knew for a fact what causes that … but a guess would be about … his inability to raise his sexual drives … to activate his cognitive faculty … and to commence the engagement of mind in his activities. I'm thinking back to my childhood … and the condition of my older brother … who went through all that. I was two years his junior. We attended school together … and played the usual children's games. But there was something there … I may have missed until now.

 

I was doing better at school than him … more boisterous … attention seeking … was the favorite of my mom and dad … and everyone thought me cute. By the time I went to college … and then a diplomatic posting overseas … he had all but retired in mind and attitude. The last time I saw him … he had joined a faith group … and the house was fully decorated with statues of idols … representing the Indic pantheon. As always he wore the smile of vague contentment … that was partially concealed.

 

Its a personality that has always fascinated me … owing to its deep contact with the passions … in all its internally expressive content … like as if all life are lived in peace within … and the individual identified with the forces of nature … anima … and the elements. But the individual has great difficulty in relating to normal society … and the enthusiasm of a social life. Its like the individual lived in another world … either of a time gone past … or yet to come.

 

I seem to recall a similar attitude I had in my teens … that was partially suppressed on account of my extroverted attitude … that I made contact with to discern its purpose. It showed itself to be reliant on faith entirely … and appeared to be intuitive of a divine purpose to life … that was vaguely experienced as epiphanies … or flashes of insight … from time to time. But there were the usual ethical issues that emerged that caused a tangle.

 

In essence … there were no ethics I could discern … in relation to that attitude. Its as if … the sexual drives are internalized … and their eros natures draw on a man's passions and mind … to create a grand scheme of possibilities … in respect of creation. In place of its concerns for others … is an attitude that seems to say … ' either you're with us or against us.' It became clear to me that I wasn't going to put up with such a condition … and it showed in my demeanor. That was what caused my crash … at age 19 … and I rose after that to rebuilt.

 

I'm getting a great opportunity to examine such attitudes … up close and personal … these days. But along the way … there was the usual skirmishes on issues … that basically represented … the passion's position as the emperor of the realm … and somehow … all that arose in the eros natures … was sourced from it … and it is the final arbiter on issues. I had always thought that we serve a common purpose … and I faced each argument I encountered on attitudes … with the view to showing the passions … that a better way is possible … especially with some simple admissions to not knowing … and relying on note taking to create a perspective.

 

Imagine my shock of discovery … at the point of my fall … that all the creative goings on in the internalized aspect of my personality … was the individual attempt … to create and view the creation process … the world … universe and man. I was at a loss for words! What on earth! … I could have almost yelled! The world has already been created … and we are now entering into the 21^st C bce! What in heaven's name are you guys doing … trying to figure out how to create the world? Who put you in charge?

 

It saddens me to say that my own attitudes on it could have been more moderated. What the passions were engaged in … in my disposition … was what they have been doing … for eons … through the actual creation of the world … the anima … man … and the initiatives by man to understand himself. Its taken place in many ways … of which the passion is just one. There's the eros energies projecting themselves on their own accord … there's the devotion expressed by the child aspect … then the ove of the female in her reproductive experiences. The list goes on.

 

Well … I'm pleased to say … I've received some pioneering cooperation by the passions and the other instruments … to rely on my learning disposition … to define … timeline … chart … and organize the knowledge of creation and of man. It appears almost ready to substitute for my learning … its own past practices … with some exceptions as regards children and women. And by golly … I'm glad I kept up my part of the bargain … and was able to put into application … what always represented as human possibilities … on learning.

 

I'm here today … in the place that many visited as Utopia. We are pretty certain that we cannot go back to the experience of half-man half bird … or half-hound … elephant … tiger … snakes … and so forth. And we are certainly not returning to live with the lion and the lamb. What we are certain about is the advancement of the human specie … to as far as it will go … with the accomplishments of passion and mind … in a constitution that may eventually integrate with the world and universe … as the created son.

 

What the ancients relied on before … was simply a re-enactment of the body-mind … as regards their need to understand themselves … and I met a bunch of them.  But that was before we created such incredible advances in the engagement of the mind for learning. That's new. And in a union of the mind with the passions … my guides say they may recreate the dreams … advance the jiva … reconstitute the physical form … and lead the life into the future. I'm thinking it may be the new science.