Stop Don't Wait!

At The Crossing

You won't find such a choice of words at the traffic lights.  But it ought to be posted for all those people who say … ' I want to stop thinking of him … but I can't ' … and then … ' but when I think I would like to know him better … I suddenly stop.' The point as Zen says … ' is to do what you want to do with all your might. ' Meaning … either you walk away … or you go for it. Its an issue that has a much larger impact on our passions that the significance we give to it.

 

It is possible to enter into engagement with the point of this condition and to view it clearly. However the individual must first be prepared to bring a little more than their amused smile to the experience. Historically … we find its source in the lives of Kings … or specifically … in the lives of the Prince and Princesses … of royalty. It begins innocently enough … with a sense that we know that person … that we are only now meeting. And because we know him/ her ... we feel compelled to respond.

 

In a final analysis … we find that the relationship … is like two lives that live for each other … under the dome of the sky … in which he is doing as much to contribute to the world … as you are. And you are both coming to meet in the midst of it … in a relationship … or marriage … in which you are each playing your part … in the grand scheme of things. Its the thought I think … we felt when we … witnessed the recent marriage of Prince William and Katherine Middleton.

 

Its a suggestion of the elaborate embroidery of life … lived in the reality of the world … despite our on-going impulses for a greater understanding of reality … and amidst the cries … that love should be freed from such shackles of delusion. It may not be us today … for we have moved away from the fairy tales of romance … but its always there. And when it is possible … its gratifying to come back to it to see it for what it is … as the building block of human passion and mind.

 

In doing so … a woman may be gratified to learn that … everytime he said … ' you're my breath ' … it was entirely true … and each time she said … ' you're my world ' … it was absolutely true. For science may not yet today prove that … such is the physical conditions … for the cultivation of life in the human condition … but human insight is capable … and can come back to view the condition … with no further doubts … of its authenticity in our lives.

 

I'm referring entirely to my experiences on the matter … and yes … I believe such experiences that we describe as … ' love at first sight ' … has come and gone in my experiences … but no … I wasn't looking to affirm that in my understanding. My pre-occupation has been with the identity of the individual … his relation to the world … and his awareness of himself as a thinking … feeling being. But my re-discovery of the experience of love … extends beyond the merely mortal … it refers to a certain eternal sense of love … that's a part of our evolution into the human condition and beyond.

 

For what I find intimated to me … is the way creation … has steered the issue of self " love … as a relation between specie … gender … and its suggestions of affection between the being and the created living domain of our existence. Certainly it expresses itself in the sexual relations … and in equal measure in the sensual experiences of our lives. But we will be surprised to find … as I have … that it also expresses itself through our understanding and knowledge of ourselves.

 

Perhaps that's the hardest thing anyone had to deal with … in their relations with another. We expect love to be a blind giving … unpretentious … unaware of its own view of the experience. We expect it to be innocent … carefree … non-committal … and not subject to any law but itself. And in a greater scope of the experience of the being … it is all that in the universe … but in the human condition … it tells us we are not ready yet for such extravagance.

 

I used to experience an expansion of my chest cavity … with what I thought might have been a bulging of my heart … at some of the discoveries I have been making. It got so … that I wore a harness to grip my rib cage … so that I can breathe normally. Or those incredible moments of poignancy … when in touch with the reasons as to why I was subject to this and that … which reddened the eyes … because I didn't realize it before.

 

Eventually I came to the conclusion that human tissue … is not an adequate instrument of experience of the love of the universe. It is just inadequate to hold together … the realization of the vast possibilities we encounter … as its expression … and how that is designed to fulfill the life of the being in it. So I found a new volition in self control … and allowing for myself to be managed by the forces of the creative endeavor … so that I may save life in limb … as part of the human experience.

 

However … in viewing the way … the jiva travels around the world …. from life to life … I am cognizant of the way … it brings intimations of the romance of life … in small doses .. so that we may appreciate it … and grow with our understanding of it. I'm thinking back on my childhood memories of friendship … love … caring … and so forth … and I find that it still exists in the world … though not at a level … a lover may expect. Such love … needs a reality check!

 

Disappointments … the way they first bring an expectation … and then a let down … refers to the visions of possibilities we see in our lives … and thereafter to serve us with the tenacity to pursue and achieve them. What is the final word I would say about love? Just this … that it doesn't simply want to love … but to know what love is!