THINK

You Okay?

Thinking … as a process … of arriving at decision making … continues to be studied … in study circles. Do we know what thinking is? Undoubtedly … we are accustomed to a manner … of doing things and making decision. And in a strange way … we engage an obsession … as part of the thinking process. That obsession serves as a … cut-off point … in our thoughts … and moves us to act … based on a measure … of issues we have reviewed.

The obsessions so engaged … makes for a long list … comprising … the limitations of the environment … income generation … love commitments … relational and friendship ties … lust … risks … and knowledge of issues. And then … there is … one other obsession … that can be as strong … as anything else … we encounter as obsessions. We are coming to understand it better … but for now … I have represented it … in my writings … as the future specie … or the issue of self realization. Know yourself.

I did a small experiment with papaya trees recently. I cut down an old papaya plant … but left the stump on the ground. This in turn produced 4 new sprouts … from the stump. I had never seen something like that before … so I let it go on. It grew to a height of about 3 feet … sprouted flowers … that turned into fruit. And then … all the leaves started to yellow … and I was sure … it wasn't going to go on … much further. So I cut it off.

The experience … left me wondering about the way … we add on new experiences to what we do … and build it on the old. That produces … a mutation of some kind … in our passions … and influences our thoughts regarding … the self … and the world. For instance … I used to have this morbid fear of injuries … that cause loss of limbs. These days … with the advances … in prosthetics … and 3-D printing … my fears are all but gone. But it has also induced in me … a view of the human condition … that has not been a part of my experience before.

We are … in relation to the new experiences … induced to think … about the evolving human condition. What many of us … continue to do … is to hang on to a lifestyle … we have cultivated … and create a dismissal of any other issue that arises … in our societies. The issue is a critical one. I had been postponing any thought on the new … in favor of my survival today. But … the negativity … the acrimony … and the plain bizarre disapprovals … I found in my constitution … made me stop to think.

An evolutionary need in my body … that was pushing me to examine the issues … even by the denial of my existing lifestyle? Well … obviously … nobody had told me … I would have to do that. My mother … as I recall … told me to learn cooking when young … because according to her … its time that men share in the housework. And then there was this kid … in the deepest recesses of my mind … who kept moaning and groaning … about my dismissal of the issues.

So … I finally made time … to review and think. And that's when I realized its was an entirely new experience for me. To think … you will first have to learn how to sit. I told myself I'll sit on a chair … no way I'm going to sit cross-legged on the ground … and practice mantras. Eventually I learnt to sit for about one hour. And that I might add was an accomplishment for me. Just sitting … no TV … no internet … simply sitting … maybe with a book.

Today … as I sit to contemplate … I come into contact with a child. He's a male boy … perhaps about 9 or 10 years of age. He has this tremendous gift for improvisation … and seeks to improve on … what I bring into my expressions. Mostly its about … how Indic approaches to thought … convey a strain in the thinking and will process … and ends up … expressing itself … in the gothic. Turns out the kid is tissue based … and is related to the auto-immunization system of the body. It produces the quality of imagination … that I refer to as Celt … when we channel that into productive engagement.

Its as if … when I think … it borrows from the body of a child … its potency … and conveys that into an expression … of the infinite possibilities of life. In engaging that in my thoughts … I bring a guide to its many possibilities … and narrow the view … into a continuity of experience … in the human condition … into new bodily aspects … that are an expression of our desires … for advancement as a specie.

At this time … my thoughts gather themselves … around the male notion of independence … both mind and the passions … and views the possibility of forms … that may represent both sexual organs in the one individual. Its a highly complex issue for the mind … for it refers to the way we manage both male and female qualities … in the body … and may undertake childbirth … as a joint experience of the male.

In applying myself that way … I find that the kid … is orientating to his dream of such possibilities … as I bring myself to inform … that it'll take another … 2,000 to 3,000 years … for us to achieve such a human physiology … in the physical … and for us to undertake the correct management of that .. in mind and passion. Its possible the kid thought we have already accomplished that in our present physical form. Its a delusion from the dreams … applied in the improvisation … of a gay lifestyle.

When we are right about something … in the cultivation of the issues … of our self awareness … we find the support and affirmation … of the physical environment of the world. That makes us feel good about what we do. Such a delusion was in support … of Indic faith and thought … in past years. Certainly … the creative energies work together … for our common cause. It ought to be noted that such … delusions in Celt … were important for cultivating the dream … but now … retired … in favor of the future physical development of the same.