Seen to be Done

The Autumnal Legends Series : II

I love American movies. I caught a snippet of a late movie  last night at the cafe where I have my coffee. It was on satellite TV. There's a scene in which a solar flare storms onto a space station and causes havoc on the humans aboard and the electronics. They survived it but had to undergo a period of hospitalization.

I couldn't stay to watch. It aggravated my own memories of a severe burn of my celt … I was 19 and still on cloud 9 … I was slightly dreamy with a strong imaginative and pictorial thought sensation about things … it veiled the eyes from too strong a glare from the sun. But at 19 the eyes are opening up to more … safety on the roads … knives in the kitchen … the cognition of friends, situations and events … it adds up and then like a solar flare cuts through the veils and causes a conflagration in the subtle emotions.

For two years after that I was bereft and searched for something to fill the growing void in my passions. The family astrologer told me that the sun had entered my chart at 19. That didn't help very much … but last night that little snippet from the movie told me more … and I came to ' see ' in some way what had happened to me. I was identifying myself with the characters in the movie.

In seeing that I came to the final act of healing that I have been going through. If justice must be seen to be done then certainly healing must experience a re-enactment of the injury.

It left me very quiet going home … a particular struggle I have been coping with my entire adult life came to a stop. I look back at how I had filled in the time and realize that like the ' light and sound ' show at the pyramids in the Giza, I had been directing a picture show … with some help from Irish coffees.

Its on occasions such as these that I perceive the importance of drama, play, song and poetry. The stories that we sometimes come across source themselves in the genius of magic and bring to us an apparent coincidence in our affairs but draws the attention to our needs. I have for the last two years been dedicating myself to the needs of the young who may share my experiences from youth.

The sun is leaving my part of the world at the equator and traveling south. Soon the days will be shorter and the monsoon will begin. Indoors … by the light of the stars … I expect that I'll be seeing my old dreams again this year. It promises to be tumultuous … I seem to have left behind many friends, qualities and promises. Our lives are lived in relation … to, with, by … the light of our eyes. We are seen to live.