For My Baby Sister... So far from Home...

These words come straight from my heart...

I cried tonight...

It was the first time in a long time...

Such simple, innocent words yet they cut me so deep...

I berated another for leaving, and though the situations are so different...

I had done the same thing too...

I guess it's good that you don't feel as much pain as you did...

But just that one little admission made me feel worse than ever...

I love you so much, your my little sister after all...

I would die to protect you, but now I feel I've let you down...

A visit once a year... It tears me apart...

I makes me wonder if my dreams and education were important enough...

I'm so sorry baby girl, and even if you don't read this at least I have said it...

I'm glad it's easier on you now, and I hope it will remain to be easier next time after I visit...

As soon as the words were passed on, the first tear fell...

But emotions can be easily hidden on the phone...

I feel that I have failed in my role as a sister, as a role model...

After all I'm not there for you to look up to anymore...

I can't take back the fact that I left, but I hope that I can make it up to you...

I don't want you to need to say such things, and I don't want you to be sad...

Yet it still hurts to realize that life will continue and you will change...

One day I'll come home to stay, and I'll no longer have to move away...

I don't like tears, and I don't like pain...

I don't want to have to cry again...

I love you, and I'll be home soon...

Reviews

[Renée]

Oh how this touches I am the baby sister in my family...she looks up to you even when you are far away...showing her how to live life strong by example is not letting her down..there is no distance great enough to break the bond of sisters..
Heart felt writings are always the best..I hope you shared this piece you written with her

[NibbleLove]

This is so sad. My baby sister is my whole world so I can relate. Letting her down would just crush me. I really love this :)

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

deeply touching, beautifully written.

[zainul]

You are a responsible elder sister.
Your love and responsibility have been reflected so nicely.
You might have spoken on behalf of all role models.

I am moved by the following 3 sentences:
"I don't like tears, and I don't like pain...
I don't want to have to cry again...
I love you, and I'll be home soon..."