Everyone in our section of the
habitat would gather in the park on Saturday afternoons. The grownups
in little groups, eating, drinking and talking, always talking. The
sounds of their voices a low background for the higher pitched
chatter and shrieks of we children, as we swarmed around the play
sets, laughing and screaming, glorying in the one afternoon of the
week when we could be as rambunctious and noisy as we wished.
When
we'd tired ourselves out, we'd run off to our families, and eat until
we were ready to pop. Then, in the late afternoon, we would lay in
the soft green grass, with our closest friends, the tops of our heads
to the north, so the sunlight gathered by the great reflectors, and
redirected into the habitat through the giant space windows, wouldn't
blind us as we gazed across the habitat cylinder at the little green squares that stood out amid the gray blocks of apartments and factories of the other sections, and
wounder if there were kids is those parks looking back at us.
"It's like flying, don't you
think?" I would ask my best friend Jose, staring up at other
side, so far away that we couldn't even make out the trees in the
parks.
"Like flying up in the shuttle, and looking back
down on earth," Jose would say, his bright, freckled face turned
up, as he sprawled on the grass, arms spread wide as if he were
floating in the air. He would then tell about his ride up from Earth
in the shuttle, and I would listen rapt, and a little jealous that
he'd had the adventure when I'd never even been out of our section of
the habitat. All the while wishing that I had the chance to see such wonders as he
had seen.
***
The troubles with Earth started when I
was nine. Talks between the conglomerate of corporations that had
built the L spot Space Habitats, and the council of Union leaders that
represented the workers who lived and worked in them, broke down.
Earth's Council of governments stepped in to mediate, and things went
down from there.
For a while the troubles had little
effect on my life. I heard all the talk among my mother's set, about
how presumptuous and arbitrary the Earth delegates were being. How
they were siding with the conglomerate--
"Of course they would!" This
said with knowing nods. "The Conglomerate is based on Earth
after all, and Earth thanks we're like the mechanicals we build! What
would we need benefits for!"
I also saw the wary look in
the eyes of the grownup's who weren't Habitat born, as groups in the
park on Saturdays got tighter, and there was less and less mangling
between Habitat and Earther adults. We children still played
together, but even with us groups began to form and separate.
I
payed little attention to it all at first. It wasn't until the
Saturday that my Mother called me back when I started to run and join
Josy at the swing-set, that I begin to understand that my life was
changing.
"Shawn," she said, when I came
drag-footing back, "I don't want you playing with that Earth boy
anymore".
"Who?" I ask inanely, and
then, understanding came. "Jose? But he's my best friend!"
"I
know," my mother said looking away, "but it's causing
trouble for me at work, and so I have to ask you to stop seeing
him."
I looked from mother to Josy, who was on one of the
swings, waving at me and shouting, "Look at me, Shawnyyy! Look
how high I can go!!!"
"Mom..." I said.
"It
could cost me my job, Shawn. It might even cost us our place in the
Colony." she said, interrupting my whine. "Is that what you
want?"
"No, Mom," I said, my shoulders
slumping.
Mother nodded. "Stay here by me today. That
would be best," she said with a sad smile.
***
I saw Josy a few more
times after that, but he wouldn't look at me, nor I at him. I felt
too ashamed of the way I'd abandoned our friendship without a word of
explanation, though I thought he knew why. By that time the breach
between Earth and the Colonies was openly spoke of by everyone, and
it wasn't long before the Earth born were ask to leave the Habitat
and Josy was gone.
***
When I was fourteen, talks broke
down altogether, and the the strikes started. The factories shut
down, and the shuttle service from Earth stopped. A year latter the
Colonies, including those on the Moon declared themselves free of
Earth rule. Talk of a possible invasion from Earth started, and a
Habitat Guard was founded.
I joined the Youth Guard on my
fifteenth birthday, not so much because I wanted to, but because it
was what was expected. For two years, as relations with Earth became
more and more strained, we did nothing but talk and drill, drill and
talk.
"Those snooty Earthers," someone would say,
"they want us to be their slaves!"
"Yeah,"
someone else would chime in, "cheep labor, that's all we ever
were to them."
"That's right, cheep labor, and then
they would come up here acting like Lords of the Universe, sticking
their noses in the air like they're better than us!"
I
would be silent during these bull sessions, until the invariable
question would come.. ."don't you think so, Shawn?"
"Yeah,"
I'd say, "stuck up bunch."
Truthfully I'd never
found Josy, or any of the other Earther kids I'd played with snooty,
or stuck up, and although I'd never spent much time around the
Grownups they'd always been kind to me. I didn't say any of that
however, not just for fear of what would be thought of me, but
because I didn't want to cause trouble for my mother. Besides Josy
was back on Earth, and nothing I said could hurt him. That's what I
told myself, and that's what I made myself believe.
***
When
I was on the verge of my seventeenth birthday talk of an Earther
invasion of the Habitat grew serious. As did plans for how to repel
such an attack. We of the Youth Guard were assigned to post in our
own neighborhoods, in squads of twenty, with a junior officer, from
the ROTC, in charge of each squad.
We never though we'd have
to fight. If an attack did come we were sure it would come through
the shuttle docks, where the regular Guard were stationed. What we
forgot was that Earth had built the Habitats, and might know more
about them than we did.
***
We were hunkered down in a
service access twenty hours after the first shuttle had been seen
lifting from Earth, and two hours since the attacks, through
builders hatches we'd known nothing about, had begun. My squad had
yet to see action, thought the squad to the north of us was in a
running fight, and we'd just gotten word that there was a breach in
our section.
"They're coming in here," my CO pointed
to a spot on the plans he'd spread out on the floor. "at this
section of corridor, on the other side of the park. If we don't cut
them off before they get to the square around the park they'll
spread out and we'll never contain them." He stood and folded
the set of Habitat plans, and we moved out at double time.
The
fighting was a blur I killed, who hand never killed anything before,
and I saw those around me, kids I'd known all my life, die. We fell
back, and then fell back again, until we were fighting in the Park
itself, dodging around the play-sets, like some macabre version of
one of our childhood games.
I dodged around the slide, to get
out of the line of fire of an Earther, only to come face to face with
another. His gun was leveled at my chest, and I knew I would never
get a shot off before he did, but I was pulling the trigger even as I
braced for death.
He had me, there was no getting out of that,
but he didn't shoot. "Shawn?" he said even as my shot took
him full in the chest spinning him back and down.
I watched
him fall, his name a silent scream in my head, as I ran to his side
and looked down into the bright, freckled face of my best friend, his
blue eyes staring up unseeing at the Habitat above us, as his blood
pooled in the dust beneath the swing-set where I had turned my back
on him that terrible afternoon.
And looking into his unseeing eyes I
knew that the innocence of my childhood was gone forever. And in my head I heard the echo of his laughter and his voice as he called to me on that long ago day...
"Look at me, Shawnyyy! Look
how high I can go!!!"