Living for Now!A Poem by David Lewis PagetI’d
driven along the cobbled street And
along to the village square, When
something had caught my attention, and It
was then I became aware, I’d
had vague thoughts of another life That
I’d lived in the distant past, Was
there something locked in my memory That
would tell me the truth, at last? I
didn’t remember who I was My
name, or even my face, For
five long years I’d hunted and searched For
a clue, a familiar place, My
life ‘til then was a total blank I’d
found myself by the sea, Crawling
up out of the water there Was
the first that I knew of me. The
war was just about over, and Confusion
had reigned supreme, So
much rubble and people dead I
couldn’t remember a thing, The
place I’d lived may well have been bombed, I
wandered the empty streets, Of
buildings, shattered to empty shells Of
craters, seven feet deep. I
found some clothes in a rubbled shop For
my own had been torn from my back, There
were burns all over my body, Had
I been caught in an air attack? I
went to the local hospital Where
the staff had treated my burns, But
they said they didn’t know who I was So
I left, and never returned. I
did odd jobs and I found a room And
I bought the News each day, I
checked the names on the missing lists In
the hopes I’d be found one day, But
I never saw a familiar face Nor
read a familiar name, I’d
given up when I drove on through The
village called Hamlin Dane. I
parked the car, next to the square Where
a cottage had caught my eye, My
heart was beating, loud in my chest Though
I stood and I wondered why, Then
a woman walked on out to the street There
was something familiar there, She
looked across and she caught my eye, Then
stopped and began to stare. She
walked, then ran right up to my side, And
then she began to cry, ‘My
God, it’s you, just where have you been,’ Then
stopped, and let out a sigh. ‘For
five long years we thought you were dead, So
why have you come back now?’ I
shook my head with a sense of dread, I
wanted to tell, but how? Then
fleeting visions came into my mind Of
a warm and a cosy hearth, A
loving woman beside me there And
a child that we’d christened Garth. I
tried to tell her I’d lost my mind, My
memories stirred just then, She
shook her head, ‘I’d like to be kind, But
I’ve just got married again.’ Then
I was aboard a Lancaster Heading
on home from a raid, We’d
bombed the city of Frankfurt, and The
turret was shot away, We
limped back over the channel, then Were
hit with a burst of flack, The
plane went down in a burst of flame, And
I thought we’d never get back. I
was the only survivor, that I
knew, as we hit the sea, The
others went down with the crippled plane, They
wouldn’t be looking for me, I
stared at Joan and began to cry, The
tears were wet on my cheek, ‘I’m
sorry, darling, I don’t know why But
the future is looking bleak!’ There
was a time when I’d lived a life That
I’d lost and I don’t know how, A
wife, a son, and they’d turned their backs And
I can’t really blame them now. She
said it was best if I left that place, She
was married again, for sure, So
I stayed a week then I drove away, I
can’t even blame the war. It’s
sixty years, I stare at the hearth, I
never got married again, My
life flew by in a stream of tears Of
what I had lost, back then, My
son found out and he looked me up, He
said he was sorry, and how, I
hugged him close and I bit my lip, And
said, ‘I’m living for now!’ David
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