I hate Trying (Get over You)

I hate trying to get over you

You were never supposed to get so far with me

I could never leave like I always do

So now you've packed up, and you're walking free

Please just run before I fall again

I don't want to crawl on my knees begging 

There's no way I could win

So now I'm picking up the pieces, starting with bedding

My soul cries out as I stand paralyzed 

I tried talking, but you're head's harder than concrete

So I know your decision's finalized 

But I can't get kissing you out of my head, you taste so sweet

I want to cry, I want to scream

I don't ever want to dream at night again if it's always you

Because I miss you something so extreme

And the memories leave me painted purple and blue 

Up is down, heaven is hell 

Without you everything is wrong, and I'm giving up

I give up trying to feel well

Sitting in a bathroom stall, watching my life blow up

I hate trying to get over you

You were never supposed to get so far with me

I could never leave like I always do

So now you've packed up, and you're walking free

Reviews

[Peach]

It's terrible how heartbreak can bring out such vulnerability.
"I give up trying to feel well"
Such desperation and hurt. I feel for you.
When you mention
"You were never supposed to get so far with me I could never leave like I always do"
It sounds like this love came out of nowhere. Intentions at the beginning changed so quickly. I feel like that hurts even more. I feel like my best writing comes from moments of pain. Not sure if that's the same for you, but for me, it's almost like I have to be in a state of sadness to write something eloquently. I appreciate you being vulnerable. I hope writing helps to mend your heart.

[David-Tyler]

Thank you so much! I'm the same way. I said it before, and it's awful of me to paraphrase my own quote but writing is ugly. You have to dig up all the hurt, tears, wounds, good times, and bad times to really write. Writing is beautiful in the way that scars are beautiful, for someone to own their past, and their feelings is something remarkable within itself. Thanks such a kind worded review, and the care. :)

[Relic]

There's a song by a group called Marillion. It's called "Hooks in you." I think the lyrics should suffice.

[David-Tyler]

Thanks for showing me a song that's new to me, and I like it a lot. Also, absolutely true, and I hate admitting it.