Every day I see green. Bright lime green, brown-green,
yellow-green, blue-green; but all of them somehow harsh and artificial. I see
green every day, but I had never experienced green. After twenty years of false
green I wanted something else, a genuine green like in the old stories I read
out of big dusty books in the back of the library. I wanted to experience the warm
green of sun filtered down through the leaves of a tall tree (I found a picture
in one of the books once), or the strange dull green of lichen on a rock (which
is something like spotty cement, or so I gathered), or the live bright green of
grass (which I figured out is some sort of organic ground covering).
And
then, one day long after my first discovery of the idea of genuine green, as I
walked down the stairs from my apartment building to the sidewalk, I saw it. In
an out-of-the-way crack in the cement stairs hid a small spot of fuzz. Green fuzz. I examined it closely for a
moment and sprinted to the library.
My
mind buzzed while I searched for the botany book on the decrepit back shelves. My
first real green, perhaps the last genuine green in the whole world. In the
botany book I found a small, dark green, fuzzy plant: moss. Moss. I savored the
word all the way home. Moss. Up the stairs. Moss. Into my apartment. Moss. I
grabbed the novel I was currently reading, jumped back down the stairs, and sat
on the cement in the sun to read. I stroked the moss with a single finger as I
read.
Moss.
Suddenly I could see the greens of the forests and fields in the old novel
better than ever before. My moss was a pristine green, something sacred, a
window to the past. I read next to my moss all afternoon, and again the next
day. Could it have been my imagination that the air felt cooler and cleaner
when I sat there, the city smog hanging just overhead, but with my moss next to
me?
On
the third day, I heard a strange rumbling on the street. I looked out my
window. Much to my dismay, I spied one of the city’s trucks dousing my building’s
steps with some sort of chemical spray. When the truck finally left, I rushed
down to the stairs and scrutinized every cranny of the concrete, but my moss
was nowhere to be found. I cried then because my green space, the last green
space in the world, was gone.