We like to party. Is it over?

I wanted you to crash and burn
And never get up
Internal bleeding that got so bad
That maybe you would hiccup
Comfortable with heart ache
Uneasy in deceptions
Masking fear as bravado
Legacy of the skeptic

But now I want you back so bad
I really can't feel much
Throwing up our lies, our truths that
really when we split up,
we lost more than we gained
And I'm the one to blame
I'm writing out our story still
So what's a little distrust

I beat you with my accusations
Killed you with high stakes
Wondering if some Jamison
Will dull some of the heartbreak
Wonder why I ain't been touched by
Another after all our heart ache
Or is my p***y broken?
Should I forgive all of ya mistakes?

F****n on ya old girl
Buying me with money
When expenses wouldn't do
You took it all right back then you fronted
I bleached up all ya pride
I keyed up all ya beliefs
Left your place the way I found it
Cuz crazy isn't me
I wanted us to die together
Or for you to be alone
The curse of guilty pleasure
Is the hell becomes your home