Lustifycation, Volume 2

Just like "Volume 1," here's number 2!

Lustifycation, Volume 2

Lust, the sin that caught me red handed
And is what put our friendship on the rocks three months ago
Unable to gaze at the find wonder God has placed here
Due to my thought life and it taking control of my body
My Lord, my God, day-in and day-out, I’m learning more about you
And I’m trying to find ways to glorify you in this mess of it all
Jesus, I seek You in times like this, You’re the help I needed
And the only One who can bring me back to you once again

Why did I have to break into your room
And to grab your clothes and masturbate with them?
With three months past, why do I still hurt
From the friendships you have, that hurt me months ago?
These questions, as many others, I wish I can answer,
As well as why I’m oh-so attracted to you, my friend
Looking back, I wish I could have controlled my body,
Knowing full well how much my lustification has brought us pain

Last night, I fell into it again, I checked you out
After all this, the pleasure of the flesh is still there haunting me
Anger and guilt, when I full, remember the past pleasures
And remembering the current pain that’s inside of me right now
Thought life, you’re always there, always happy when I stumble,
For when I do, it’s junk food for you, which you strive off of
My friend, your body, a stumbling block in my walk with the Lord
Could this be for our better good, us no longer speaking or hanging out?

There’s nothing I can say or do but it desires you
Why, oh Lord, am I being tempted this way, please help
Figuring, oh just figuring out why ‘the Vine and the Branches’
Always makes me think of us and it needing pruning
Maybe, just maybe this once, God answered my plea
Of ending this struggle for me, desiring you
Pain and struggles I encountered and defeated
All due to Jesus abides, I couldn’t do it on my own

Your body, hot on my mind, enter thoughts, and stick around
Why do you boggle such my mind, always going downtown
Thoughts always go downtown to “Chinatown” with my eyes
No chance, I now I have, but I have no clue on why
Why I have such thoughts, feelings, and desires, for your body
Only God can get me though this attraction and pain
Only the lonely knows how it truly feel
Through it all, Jesus never left my side

After these troubling days and longing for Jesus
I feel I’m free from this desire, all due to Jesus
His bloodshed that crimson day for us all
Saved us from hell bound by these desires that aren’t Godly
Our God, our Savior, brought me through it all
Through the darkness He never left my side, oh no
When the dust settles and the smoke settles,
Thus killing lustfycation will be the one indeed long gone