Too Young

I had an innocent mind,
An untouched body
Until the day I screamed 'No'
I was too young to know
What it meant to be shoved onto a bed

At 6 years old my first kiss was by a curious girl
No one knew I told her to stop
I was too ashamed to tell
For four years I continued to be tested
Before I was 16, nearly every touch felt like I was being molested

I was the only one who knew the truth
The assaulter's parents couldn't even look the me in the eyes
They just thought I might not like guys
If they only knew what their daughter had done to me

They'll never know my secret
My faultless discovery
That my self hatred started when I begged someone to quit
It's not always men who touch roughly

Author's Note

Ive always denied that i was sexually abused until now and it was a huge realization of mine. Also the reason I wrote this was because women(mostly) and men need to realize not everyone is sexually assaulted by a man. Women do it too. And I'm sick of women thinking men are the scource for all our problems when each gender is equally at fault. Thanks for reading

Reviews

[WillGrant]

Very powerful poem. It's interesting how adults remember their childhood as a happier time and safe. But as I think back now that's when I was the weakest and the most open. Things that happened then were brushed off and not understood. But if they happened today my world would flip upside down. Thanks for putting that into perspective for me. And thanks for sharing.

[yvo miki]

Aww I'm sorry that happened to u

[Dark Poet]

Its alright

[GingerPocky]

I too was molested by an older girl when I was younger. This poem spoke to me and brought up feelings I haven't thought about in years. Thank you, excellent poem.

[Dark Poet]

Im sorry and thanks for the review

[Reeg]

i am a male and have not felt what this poem expresses to a full degree. but i do recognize a truly beautiful poem. the emotional content and the way that it was written is so amazing i feel like this is one of the reasons why poetry is so great. this is hands down the best poem I've read in a long time.
Sorry for your loss (Referring to the first line in the poem )

[Dark Poet]

That is one of the best things for someone to say about my poem. Thank you

[Luna Chan]

okay dark poet. I know what youre going through. I feel the pain. I was 11 when mine started though

[Dark Poet]

I'm sorry you have also been theough this. Its nice knowing some people know how you feel or else you feel so alone though. Has it stopped now?

[Luna Chan]

yeah he moved away but im still scared.

[Dark Poet]

Good. Theres no reason you shouldnt be scared. You should tell the police so he doesnt do it to any ody else

[Luna Chan]

well im 15 now so I cant do anything about it now but my mom and dad know.

[Dark Poet]

At least they know

[Luna Chan]

yeah tha the good thing the bad thing is that I didn't tell them until 2 years later...

[Dark Poet]

The important thing is they know now. I didnt even tell my parents until 2 weeks go

[Luna Chan]

okay well they know and maybe they can do something.... I don't know... its a thought...

[Dark Poet]

Yeah, mine is sorta a complicated scenario:/ thanks

[Luna Chan]

hey no problem! I try to help in any way I can so let me know if anything goes south! btw im not going to be on over the summer. just a heads up! :) ^.^

[Simon Welsh]

Agreed. I'm so sorry you went through this.

[Pratik Mishra]

Really well written. Good work.

[Emily]

I love this one!
Keep it up!

[D.T.]

I am so sorry that happened to you...thank you for sharing this. By sharing this, you could be helping others as well as raise the awareness for the situation. You're right..it's not just men...women do it too. Thank you for sending the read request because this was a good poem about something true that is terrible. You did a good job!

[Dark Poet]

Thank you for agreeing and taking the time to read:)

[Justin]

that was really great :) you were able to take your experience and help people out who have been in your shoes before, great job :)