I'm proud of myself today little Fox.
I went out of my comfort zone and faced my fears and you know what? I....enjoyed myself.
You see, I'm sure you've realized this by now, but normally, in a group that large I would have been drowning in the undercurrent of panic if I had even made it past the car into the backyard. Usually I would have been too shy to accept an invitation to spend time with your family without you for fears of awkwardness or confrontation. But I went and surprised myself with how much happiness and laughter was to be found. There was no undertow waiting to pull me under. Even in chaos I didn't have to retreat to a corner to remember how to breathe. I laughed. I talked. I even went on the trampoline and taught my son how to jump on one. I made memories today Little Fox. So today.... I am proud of myself.