Words deep within

Some words can't be explained but just be felt and some words can neither be explained nor felt.

My eyes open, my heart sighs.
The pain inside, the bell chimes.
The fake smiles and the happy rhymes,
The curious stares and toothy grins,
All shows the words deep within.

I laugh, so later I'll cry.
I cry, so later I'll laugh.
I hide, so later I'll come out.
I scream, so later I'll be soft.
You failed to understand me,
You failed to see,
What words lied deep within me.

Frown I showed,
My boat I rowed.
You hurt me always,
My tempers ablaze.
My fear not shown,
Not to anyone known.
Because never you told ,
How much you could be cold 
You took my heart which you then sold.
So you failed to realize,
That I was always in disguise.
That you could never see,
The words lying deep within me.

Author's Note

Hey there, Readers! I'm a young writer who's 13 and needs a lot of improvement!. Criticism is always welcomed. This poem is also published on a site and app named wattpad. There is my original profile. For more info, contact me! :)