The Pathetic One who is Me

im sorry

that i cant be who you want me to be

that i cant be the person you see

here i stand in tears up to the knee

hoping that someday you will love me

 

im sorry

that slowly i die trying

seaching, waiting, finding

in the love, quickly dying

hoping to pass away fighting

 

im sorry

for things i didnt mean

im just trying to come clean

to actions i've never seen

i can do nothing but dream

 

im sorry

that i cant leave you a proper goodbye

and that im worthless and shy

all you can do is lie

while i sit helpless and cry

 

im sorry

you have to see me this way

just give it some time and i will stray:

soon you will never again see me sway

like the waves of oceans at bay

 

im sorry

but you will never see me again

nothing to lose and nothing to gain

continue your life, so rough and vain

hopefully you wont be driven insane

 

im sorry

but this is it, so long

im about to sing my last and final song

i'll finally be in a place i belong

trust me, nothing will go wrong

im sorry

about what i've said

lying here crying in my bed

my eyes bloodshot with red

slowly holding the gun up to my head...