Abyss of a lovers soul

If only you could look straight into my eyes
Seeing the pain this inflicts within my inner skies
Fake smiles I shine and broken lies I have told
All the while wishing you were mine to hold
My mind branches into a million places
But these thoughts vanish quickly as my courage erases
Life without you is nothing but a scare
A darkend place I call my nightmare
Oh how badly I want to run to you
Throwing my arms around your neck, you haven't the clue
Never letting go, forever by your side shall I stay
And yet I'm afraid of pushing you away
I can feel the heart I once possessed is no longer in sight
Replaced by demons that lurk in my soul late at night
I try to hide how I truly feel
By telling myself none of this could ever be real
Now I am no longer guided by the light you gave me
Falling inside the endless black with memories I wish wouldn't be
Tears continue to pour from the devistating clouds of inceneration
Thinking of true love is lost in the time of this generation
Now I know it will never again be just you and I
With my last breath I shall say my final good bye