You're Not Alone

You think you're alone

But actually you're not

You're just on your own

You don't know what being alone feels like

And you never will

Not until all the people in your life

Distance themselves from you

And they can watch you struggle and feel right

I've hit rock bottom so many times it no longer bruises me

All the people I used to love used to love me

But now it's hard pressed for those sour grapes to move me

You think you're alone

But actually you're not

You're just on your own

I've been abandoned by my soul

Heart lost desire to grow

The girl I wake up to is the girl that I love

The guy she wake up to is not the one that she wants

I can see it whenever I look into her eyes

I'm not a prospective

With me she is just passing the time

I can't even be mad at her though

The curse of the poet

I will always be the half that loves the most

I can't fathom not giving all I could to see a smile on a person I held close or consider worth my while

While others are quite happy lying to me, you don't trust me, I see the creases in your smile

I see the lines don't connect

In the stories you feed me with such blatant disrespect

But I don't deserve your best

I'm nowhere near perfect

You think you're alone

But actually you're not

You're just on your own

No man is an island

But I'm surrounded by waters I can't swim

No life boats anywhere

Situation looks grim

When to find my inner peace

And somehow I got lost within

Is this a punishment?

Lord please tell me my greatest sin

Please tell me why suicide feels the only end?

Please guide me out the darkness that started growing in my head

Please help me stop wishing that I was dead

Every night playing chicken with razors in my hand, cry myself mad and paint the floor red, squeezing the blade and hoping the pain will give me the strength to swipe my vein until life force spent.

I see faces in the edge of my vision but none of them are heaven sent

I blink they disappear and I'm alone sitting by myself

Fresh stream of tears

Too weak to take my own life, but not strong enough to ask for help.

DarkTower

Reviews

[Loner]

Dear Dark Tower,
Great thoughts the way you have expressed pain
is really good, but please pay attention to yr tenses they seem not consistent enough
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